another year
I'm 23 now. Hooray.
I'm at that point of my life I kept telling myself I wouldn't be. I kept saying I'd be better off at 23 than others were...instead, I'm worse off. Unemployed, struggling with class schedules, and facing some financial difficulty in my home life.
I'm waiting for my luck to get better. %DEITY knows I'm doing my part, but it's difficult to keep spinning my wheels, waiting for a road - any road - to materialize beneath them.
23's just not as easy as I thought it'd be at 17. I thought the hard part would be over and I'd be all settled, living comfortably, and getting ready to be married. To be fair, I had my chance working for my previous employers for nearly two years, but I pissed the money away on a girlfriend and video games. It was a learning experience, but I'm not going to get that time or money back.
So yeah, I've been brooding a bit today. Couldn't sleep last night until 6:30AM, woke up late in the afternoon, and just...sat. Trying to plan out the rest of my week. Where I'm going to go, where I'm going to apply, where to practice my driving. It's not easy, and it's not fun, but it's things that have to be done.
I imagine I'll be in a better mood at the first of the month, when there's a bit less to worry about. But I need a jorb, and fast.
I'm at that point of my life I kept telling myself I wouldn't be. I kept saying I'd be better off at 23 than others were...instead, I'm worse off. Unemployed, struggling with class schedules, and facing some financial difficulty in my home life.
I'm waiting for my luck to get better. %DEITY knows I'm doing my part, but it's difficult to keep spinning my wheels, waiting for a road - any road - to materialize beneath them.
23's just not as easy as I thought it'd be at 17. I thought the hard part would be over and I'd be all settled, living comfortably, and getting ready to be married. To be fair, I had my chance working for my previous employers for nearly two years, but I pissed the money away on a girlfriend and video games. It was a learning experience, but I'm not going to get that time or money back.
So yeah, I've been brooding a bit today. Couldn't sleep last night until 6:30AM, woke up late in the afternoon, and just...sat. Trying to plan out the rest of my week. Where I'm going to go, where I'm going to apply, where to practice my driving. It's not easy, and it's not fun, but it's things that have to be done.
I imagine I'll be in a better mood at the first of the month, when there's a bit less to worry about. But I need a jorb, and fast.