Big Changes, Good Things
I moved back to Selma. It felt so lame to live there. Things were boring. I had no motivation. I think moving back was the best thing I've done this year. Does that make moving out there the worst thing I've done? In a word, No. Despite the things I just mentioned, I enjoyed living out there and there was much I learned about myself, others, and [adult] life in general. Most evidently, it takes extra time and responsibility (and money!) to live away from your parents. The rewards can be great though. A sense of freedom cannot be easily replaced. The ability to say, "This is my house" was something to feel good about.
Sparing greater detail, I just didn't feel right living there. In fact, I recall having a very difficult time deciding whether I wanted to move out there in the first place. Honestly, my heart wasn't in it enough. I wanted to try it out - I never had the sense that this is it, I'm on my own. I never became fully attached. I'm glad I didn't, because things are so much better for me here. I think the main reason I moved back was for my spirituality's sake. Although there was a congregation a couple miles from my house, I like the one in Kingsburg one more.. it's.. home. Here I have a better schedule. My friends and family are here. Neptune is here! My roots are here. To sum it up: I wanted to try living on my own; I tried it; I've found that my desire is to be here, even after 19 years.
Sparing greater detail, I just didn't feel right living there. In fact, I recall having a very difficult time deciding whether I wanted to move out there in the first place. Honestly, my heart wasn't in it enough. I wanted to try it out - I never had the sense that this is it, I'm on my own. I never became fully attached. I'm glad I didn't, because things are so much better for me here. I think the main reason I moved back was for my spirituality's sake. Although there was a congregation a couple miles from my house, I like the one in Kingsburg one more.. it's.. home. Here I have a better schedule. My friends and family are here. Neptune is here! My roots are here. To sum it up: I wanted to try living on my own; I tried it; I've found that my desire is to be here, even after 19 years.