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sometimes i fuck things up. never on purpose, but hurtful none the less. i apologize. if i could do everything that everyone wanted me to do and still be happy with myself, i would. most of the time when i hurt people i don't even realize that i did anything wrong until they tell me what i should have done. i am selfish, i know that. i've been this way for a while now. i want to live my life the way that makes me happy. nothing in the world is more important to me than me right now, and i dont see that changing anytime soon. at this point in my life i want to be selfish and unconcerned and maybe a little bit self-destructive. if i could live the way i do and not affect other people that would be ideal. i try not to affect other people in a negative way, but it happens anyway. again, i apologize. this is the best explanation i can give. im not a mean or hurtful person, even if some of the tings i do seem mean and hurtful. i want people to be happy, i really really do. at the same time though, don't expect too much from me. sorry.