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"The most important thing to remember is this: To be ready at any moment to give up what you are for what you might become." - W.E.B. DuBois
I'm completely, utterly, terrified. I hope I'm not making the biggest mistake of my entire life. I'm either doing that, or the best thing I've ever done, and I can't figure out which.
I'm quitting my job. It is killing me.
I'm going back to school.
The thought sends me into a panic attack. No money. I've come to depend on my comfortable salary and benefits. I'll be pretty dependant on Cat. That scares me more. I've been down this read. I want to get something at least part time as well, or do some kind of work/study thing, but I don't know yet. Have something to play with...some barrier between me and the street.
I feel like if I do this...so easily...with one little slip...all I've worked for the past 5 years could go down the drain. I don't want to lose it all. Or...I could finally make the leap I've needed to make to quit letting myself lead a mundane, status quo life I'll never be happy with, and finally do something I will be happy about. I suppose time will tell. For now, I just need to take deep breaths and take this one step at a time. Today, go down to the school and get registered, tomorrow. Well, tomorrow maybe I'll apply to starbucks :)
I'm completely, utterly, terrified. I hope I'm not making the biggest mistake of my entire life. I'm either doing that, or the best thing I've ever done, and I can't figure out which.
I'm quitting my job. It is killing me.
I'm going back to school.
The thought sends me into a panic attack. No money. I've come to depend on my comfortable salary and benefits. I'll be pretty dependant on Cat. That scares me more. I've been down this read. I want to get something at least part time as well, or do some kind of work/study thing, but I don't know yet. Have something to play with...some barrier between me and the street.
I feel like if I do this...so easily...with one little slip...all I've worked for the past 5 years could go down the drain. I don't want to lose it all. Or...I could finally make the leap I've needed to make to quit letting myself lead a mundane, status quo life I'll never be happy with, and finally do something I will be happy about. I suppose time will tell. For now, I just need to take deep breaths and take this one step at a time. Today, go down to the school and get registered, tomorrow. Well, tomorrow maybe I'll apply to starbucks :)