Lunch of satan
For lunch today I had 2 cheese dogs, and an orange freeze from varsity and a 20 min phone call from Fae where she drug my emotions across broken glass from the back of her car doing 90 mph.
I want to go home and curl up and die.
Everything she says makes it hurt worse.
"I still care for you and I DO love you but after rethinking things over I realized this is not what I wanted for the rest of my life.I'm just not in love with you anymore."
Followed with "Call me if you need me for anything.I still care."
How can she say this when just last month she was telling me how we needed to hurry up and get married and then leaving me.
I wait for the pale rider to come for me more so now then ever for only he can ease my pain.
seems this life of mine was meant for torture ans suffering.
The unwanted and cast out.
Mistake in birth and a regret in life.
And now older still unwanted.
I leave this day with to much moisture in my eyes to see reality clearly so I think I will just close them and hope to never open them again. The alcohol at home is waiting and the glasses are clean.
I only need to get there to start.
I need a drinking buddy or I could just 2 fist it tonite.
It seems I am my only friend anyway.
And the only person I have for the rest of my life.
I want to go home and curl up and die.
Everything she says makes it hurt worse.
"I still care for you and I DO love you but after rethinking things over I realized this is not what I wanted for the rest of my life.I'm just not in love with you anymore."
Followed with "Call me if you need me for anything.I still care."
How can she say this when just last month she was telling me how we needed to hurry up and get married and then leaving me.
I wait for the pale rider to come for me more so now then ever for only he can ease my pain.
seems this life of mine was meant for torture ans suffering.
The unwanted and cast out.
Mistake in birth and a regret in life.
And now older still unwanted.
I leave this day with to much moisture in my eyes to see reality clearly so I think I will just close them and hope to never open them again. The alcohol at home is waiting and the glasses are clean.
I only need to get there to start.
I need a drinking buddy or I could just 2 fist it tonite.
It seems I am my only friend anyway.
And the only person I have for the rest of my life.