You used to say you'll have to go ( I could go all night)
I've had the most lonesome of weeks.
Every so often I feel so homesick that I feel short of breath. I haven't felt this alone in such a long time. I started taking my medicine again and I feel more depressed on it then I was off of it. I feel used and avoided."I thought it through and my worst brings out the best in you"
I try to keep my chin up and look forward to better days. I want to feel close to someone. I dont want a boyfriend, just a feeling of closeness. I need someone to relate to. I miss having a best friend down the street. I miss running through the avocado groves with Christen and walking around town without a care in the world. I miss the feeling of the sun on my face like every sunday morning when we'd wake up and put on our dresses for church and then just like when we were 7 Tamara and i'd always run up and hug each other. Call me "california concieted" or just pathetic, I dont care. I feel like I left myself there.
I wanna go fishing. I start summer school next week, I can't handle a hour and a half of math every other day and I have no idea how i'm going to do it everyday for 4 hours.
My dad is coming home late july and we are going back to San Diego for a couple of weeks after summer school lets out.
(Yeah thats love...that dog owns my heart.. Just like Tiffany Howell.)
Every so often I feel so homesick that I feel short of breath. I haven't felt this alone in such a long time. I started taking my medicine again and I feel more depressed on it then I was off of it. I feel used and avoided."I thought it through and my worst brings out the best in you"
I try to keep my chin up and look forward to better days. I want to feel close to someone. I dont want a boyfriend, just a feeling of closeness. I need someone to relate to. I miss having a best friend down the street. I miss running through the avocado groves with Christen and walking around town without a care in the world. I miss the feeling of the sun on my face like every sunday morning when we'd wake up and put on our dresses for church and then just like when we were 7 Tamara and i'd always run up and hug each other. Call me "california concieted" or just pathetic, I dont care. I feel like I left myself there.
I wanna go fishing. I start summer school next week, I can't handle a hour and a half of math every other day and I have no idea how i'm going to do it everyday for 4 hours.
My dad is coming home late july and we are going back to San Diego for a couple of weeks after summer school lets out.
(Yeah thats love...that dog owns my heart.. Just like Tiffany Howell.)