it's not hard to fall, when you float like a cannonball
i am largely at peace with things right now. maybe it's because the fall weather has been so beautiful, or because so many weird, random things have been happening, or because even though some things have gotten me down lately, there have been a lot of positives also. i am usually pretty optimistic, but for a little bit there i was struggling. now i am going trying really really hard to not be nit picky, because i just end up making myself depressed.
in other news, i am on my last month of medicine, and i remember when i started it i didn't know what i could eat, so i was upset, and it was also the month that "our town" opened. it was one of the shows i loved the most during high school, and it makes me sad that that was almost 9 months ago. i will always remember that night that we went on an epic drive to nkc, and "clumsy" by fergie came on like 5 times, AND i was afraid i had dropped my wallet and i was hyperventilating for about 2 hours straight. or the night that i drove julia home when it was pouring, and we talked about how powerful the play was to us, and i finally had gotten better at acting dead. or the night that kathleen and i drove to the cast party when it was snowing, and i was fairly certain that that was going to be the last night of my life because we couldn't control the car. and as scary as that was, we couldn't stop laughing about "mediterranian zerlots", or whatever julia said. we called her about 5 times that night to clarify facts. and i will also never forget running up the back stairs after putting on my wedding dress, and panting through my monologue and the kiss that followed.
looking at pictures, i realized that exactly 9 months ago today "we have money" night occurred. i thought that was important to remember.
and even if that wasn't 9 months ago, i still miss it and i thought it deserved inclusion.
it's november already. i think i am going to go into hibernation.
tomorrow is the election!
3 weeks until thanksgiving!
yay!
STEPHANIE
EDIT
okay so, this morning i got up at 5:19 to go and vote. and as i walked over the overpasses to the commons, the sky was just so beautiful and blue. it was very strange, i felt like many people were walking with me, although i was by myself. it was just the most wonderful feeling of peacefulness, and it was not lonely at all, since it felt like i was seriously walking in a crowd. i have never felt a feeling like that before, i don't think. i just got the feeling that this day may turn out to be wonderful. i keep getting the chills, and maybe it's because i just started to listening to a live version of "strawberry swing", or maybe because things are just bound to be looking up.
in other news, i am on my last month of medicine, and i remember when i started it i didn't know what i could eat, so i was upset, and it was also the month that "our town" opened. it was one of the shows i loved the most during high school, and it makes me sad that that was almost 9 months ago. i will always remember that night that we went on an epic drive to nkc, and "clumsy" by fergie came on like 5 times, AND i was afraid i had dropped my wallet and i was hyperventilating for about 2 hours straight. or the night that i drove julia home when it was pouring, and we talked about how powerful the play was to us, and i finally had gotten better at acting dead. or the night that kathleen and i drove to the cast party when it was snowing, and i was fairly certain that that was going to be the last night of my life because we couldn't control the car. and as scary as that was, we couldn't stop laughing about "mediterranian zerlots", or whatever julia said. we called her about 5 times that night to clarify facts. and i will also never forget running up the back stairs after putting on my wedding dress, and panting through my monologue and the kiss that followed.
looking at pictures, i realized that exactly 9 months ago today "we have money" night occurred. i thought that was important to remember.
and even if that wasn't 9 months ago, i still miss it and i thought it deserved inclusion.
it's november already. i think i am going to go into hibernation.
tomorrow is the election!
3 weeks until thanksgiving!
yay!
STEPHANIE
EDIT
okay so, this morning i got up at 5:19 to go and vote. and as i walked over the overpasses to the commons, the sky was just so beautiful and blue. it was very strange, i felt like many people were walking with me, although i was by myself. it was just the most wonderful feeling of peacefulness, and it was not lonely at all, since it felt like i was seriously walking in a crowd. i have never felt a feeling like that before, i don't think. i just got the feeling that this day may turn out to be wonderful. i keep getting the chills, and maybe it's because i just started to listening to a live version of "strawberry swing", or maybe because things are just bound to be looking up.