Friend
The thought of never seeing my friend again really really bothers me...All I keep thinking is maybe they will get better...maybe I can help in some way...I wish things were different...but it isnt...I hate thinking the worst..but that is what normally seems to happen...I need to try and go on with my life but I am in limbo...feeling so much love for someone is a heavy heavy thing...knowing that this someone was your soul mate...that even if there was no romance that there would still be friendship...friendship is very important to me...I take it very seriously..like family...I dont know what to do...I wish I could make things better...I wish there was some doctor out there who could help make things better..or at the very least bearable..I know I sound like a broken record...saying the same thought over and over...but I dont know what to do..I dont know who I could turn to..I always confided in this person and now it seems they can not talk back to me...once in a blue moon I hear from them...I get very excited..I want to go and see them...but they cant see me...and its very very sad....bu thats the way things are....sad....you should always be somewhat thankful for your health...its something that can be taken away when you least expect it..when I got diagnosed being diabetic..it about killed me...but I had to rise above the situation and make the best of it...I wish I could get rid of it..I try and lose weight and Ive lost 10 pounds..I thought it was 20..but I think something is wrong with my scale...its the old kind..maybe its time for some new and digital...anyway..dont take your health for granted...be glad about health..I wish health care was somewhat affordable...but it isnt..which is such an insane thought...you should not have to be rich to be well...I need to go on with my life...I need to make a change..I need to do this but I dont think I ever will...sorry for this being so fragmented...but I am like that..awkward & fragmented.