Alone
Well...Im alone again for New Year's...last year I had Kamm to hang with...but this year I got no one....its gonna be pretty sad and depressing...but that's my life...I guess...2 holiday's I cant stand to be alone...one..new year's...two..valentines day...I hate that fucking day with a pure passion...it just reminds me of how lonely I am.
well...do something about it...get someone to go with you...well..easier said than done...everyone I know is either married or with someone...or a dude...and I dont feel like being around a bunch of drunk dude's for new year's...no thank you....that happened at smitty's x-mas party a few weeks ago...I sat there while all my friends got drunk and there was a couple of women there...but they were either married or young enough to be my daughter..ugh..no thanks...so this year Im going to do the fetish thing again..at amos south end...not what I want to do...but at least I am getting out of the house and away from here for a few hours...I will prolly see scott and robin and their 2 kids...I guess...who knows?..its not like they pick up the phone when I call anyway.
the person I would like to be with I havent talked to since x-mas and they do not like going out on holidays anyway...so Im stuck back at being by myself...so whatever.
Ive tried metting women online on the dating things...but most of the women on there either arent serious...or its some sort of game.
a few weeks ago I did meet a single woman..and she was nice and vibrant and such..but she was a fucking know it all on top of things and also she had horse teeth...meaning her teeth did not fit her face...and she is into a certain type of guy which is NOT me...she likes harley dudes and shit...basically rednecks and that is not me....the people in her office were all trying to hook me up with her...but I had a feeling she would get on my nerves and her teeth I can not get over...and I know that is pretty damn shallow but so be it...I know Im lonely and somewhat desperate but not that bad....and her know it all bullshit would drive me BONKERS..believe me.
x-mas went ok..I was pretty stressed out those days...getting presents and shit..but its over and Im glad...for the past few days I have had a headache I can not get rid of...until today..its finally kinda sub sided...I am very stressed out because of work...and for the past couple of months I havent been able to bike ride until a couple of days ago...so hopefully I will start to feel a little bit better soon.
well...do something about it...get someone to go with you...well..easier said than done...everyone I know is either married or with someone...or a dude...and I dont feel like being around a bunch of drunk dude's for new year's...no thank you....that happened at smitty's x-mas party a few weeks ago...I sat there while all my friends got drunk and there was a couple of women there...but they were either married or young enough to be my daughter..ugh..no thanks...so this year Im going to do the fetish thing again..at amos south end...not what I want to do...but at least I am getting out of the house and away from here for a few hours...I will prolly see scott and robin and their 2 kids...I guess...who knows?..its not like they pick up the phone when I call anyway.
the person I would like to be with I havent talked to since x-mas and they do not like going out on holidays anyway...so Im stuck back at being by myself...so whatever.
Ive tried metting women online on the dating things...but most of the women on there either arent serious...or its some sort of game.
a few weeks ago I did meet a single woman..and she was nice and vibrant and such..but she was a fucking know it all on top of things and also she had horse teeth...meaning her teeth did not fit her face...and she is into a certain type of guy which is NOT me...she likes harley dudes and shit...basically rednecks and that is not me....the people in her office were all trying to hook me up with her...but I had a feeling she would get on my nerves and her teeth I can not get over...and I know that is pretty damn shallow but so be it...I know Im lonely and somewhat desperate but not that bad....and her know it all bullshit would drive me BONKERS..believe me.
x-mas went ok..I was pretty stressed out those days...getting presents and shit..but its over and Im glad...for the past few days I have had a headache I can not get rid of...until today..its finally kinda sub sided...I am very stressed out because of work...and for the past couple of months I havent been able to bike ride until a couple of days ago...so hopefully I will start to feel a little bit better soon.