and down she goes...
In 24 hours ive managed to go from feeling happy, positive and ambitious to wanting to cry and jump off a roof(not literally!!).
Just when I think things are getting better, Im feeling better, more confident and have started discovering myself again....wham! I feel like someone came out of no where and hit me with a semi than backed up over me again, and again. Im feeling crushed emotionally once again after i told myself i wouldnt listen to this person when they were like this and i know they like to press my buttons. I feel like a fool for thinking i had made a good purchase by buying this new car that now has me wanting to torch it and i havent driven it yet! My confidence is slowly slinking back into the ground. Why cant for once everything just pull together and let me be happy and content?? Have i not had enough bullshit in my life? Apparently not, someone is having a hay day with me by throwing all these "obstacles" in my way. I thought i was through the hardest part of my life, but looks like its just started...here we go again fighting for everything in life that i want. This time i dont know if im as strong as i was before. Blahhhhhhh
Just when I think things are getting better, Im feeling better, more confident and have started discovering myself again....wham! I feel like someone came out of no where and hit me with a semi than backed up over me again, and again. Im feeling crushed emotionally once again after i told myself i wouldnt listen to this person when they were like this and i know they like to press my buttons. I feel like a fool for thinking i had made a good purchase by buying this new car that now has me wanting to torch it and i havent driven it yet! My confidence is slowly slinking back into the ground. Why cant for once everything just pull together and let me be happy and content?? Have i not had enough bullshit in my life? Apparently not, someone is having a hay day with me by throwing all these "obstacles" in my way. I thought i was through the hardest part of my life, but looks like its just started...here we go again fighting for everything in life that i want. This time i dont know if im as strong as i was before. Blahhhhhhh