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[dreny]

Wow, I havent written in a long ass time. I'm doing alright I guess. I feel like a foster child b/c my dad's girlfriend is in town for 12 days so I am staying at various people's houses over-night. I feel like my life is kinda going no where. I'm not in school and I'm still working a shitty ass job. I spend too much money on clothes and booze. I dont have a boyfriend, I havent looked for a second job and I dont play my bassy anymore. Whats become of me. I never go out, I dont make friends and I drink too much. I havent quit smoking like I said I would and I havent lost any weight like I wanted. I feel like I've lost touch with everyone. I need to stop complaining and just get my act together. I'm starting to want to move away from my house....just to get away. I want to move to Seattle but I know I'd never make it on my own. Why Why Why? Why am I not having fun with life? I only get one and I should be doing as much as I can, but instead I just pray I'll die early and b/c of that I dont do anything with myself. i guess I want the easy way out. Idk....whatever.
bye bye
sorry so depressing, as usual