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hello! this weekend was really great. friday we had no practice, and saturday either. my dad thought workday was saturday, so i wake up at 8 AM to go work, but its sunday. i wanted to kill my dad. not really, but u know what i mean. me and Candy talked for a while. she said Paul thinks its cool how i'm wondering about him. i miss him. i havent seen him in forever. i just kinda wished that when me and him went out, he truly loved me back like i loved him. oh well, cuz now i have someone who loves me back, and will do anything for me, and vice versa. sooo...later that day, my dad and lisa went out. me and justin had a lot of fun. teehee. altho, when my dad and lisa got home later, she went into her bathroom and said "chelsea...why is the phone in my bathroom?" WHOOPS! i left it in there when me and him took a bath. i was like "huh? i havent used the phone since u guys left" then she asked my dad "did u leave the phone in the bathroom?" that was close. lol. so then today was workday. fun. me and marcie talked for a while. she told me that someone who shall remain nameless was saying things about her family and how she takes care of her horse. my jaw dropped. i was like "THATS NONE OF HIS DAMN BUSINESS." she said he said things about her husband cheating on her, saying that her daughters shorts were too short, her sister looked like a $50 hooker, and he called her a moron. some people at the stables are so ignorant. so then Justin called my cell. he came to the stables. i brushed Flame down, and i (tried to give) gave him a haircut. i cut it WAY too short. whoops. me and justin walked back, then we just watched TV for a while. i printed a bunch of stuff out for the Florida State Fair poultry show. i did some home work. me and justin went outside and read. its so beautiful outside now. i love it. we just layed there for a while. it was so nice. i know i've been saying a lot of negative things about me and him, but really, everything is ok. in fact, everything is going great. dont think we have this horrible relationship, cuz we dont. so anyways...later i went riding. it was so nice to do that. it's been a long time. i gave justin my rings to hold...and he dropped them. all of them. i about cried when he said they werent in his pocket. luckily, he found them. Flame was being kinda bratty when i first tried to gallop with him. then he did really good. i remember the reason why i dont really ride with shorts.
recently, somethings kinda been making me sad. when i've taken those online surveys and they ask about friends, and in Life Management we did this values worksheet it asked about the people we value...well, like no one really came to mind. its like a lot of my good friends arent there anymore. there are some people who ignore me even. the two main ones who i think of right now are Genia and Cait. genia kinda doesnt even acknowledge me really. i liked when i spent the night at her house. i felt like i was one of her best friends. since then, she barely talks to me. then Cait. i would have really liked to be her freiend more. she never really gave me the time of day, and she still owes me 2 bucks. when i see her at school, and i say hi, even tho im standing RIGHT next to her, she kinda gives me a weird look like "uh...leave me alone." like i said, i kinda wish me and her could have more to our "friendship". then there are others...like Danielle and erin. well, actually erin is kinda close. we hug and kiss each other almost every day. Hmmm...theres Kai, corey s, greg, alex, corey k, Lauren p, alexa (whose b-day i didnt ever get invited to), and a few others. Everyone's drifting, and no one cares anymore. now (and prolly always has been) the cool thing is to drink and smoke. im not into that shit. the people who i thought were really close, or at least closer than most are turning into druggies. i have a feeling my party is gonna be kinda dull this year. maybe i just wont even have one. it's not like anyone would notice anyways. im just another face in the crowd. another fish in the ocean. i dont even have a set "group" who i hang out with anymore. high school sucks for this reason. i feel kinda lonely and bored at lunch. i wish i had 6th period lunch. almost everyone i know is there. no one prolly is gonna be reading this anyways. its just my form of venting. anyhoo...bye. i wont bother so say "i love you all" cuz i wont be getting it back.
recently, somethings kinda been making me sad. when i've taken those online surveys and they ask about friends, and in Life Management we did this values worksheet it asked about the people we value...well, like no one really came to mind. its like a lot of my good friends arent there anymore. there are some people who ignore me even. the two main ones who i think of right now are Genia and Cait. genia kinda doesnt even acknowledge me really. i liked when i spent the night at her house. i felt like i was one of her best friends. since then, she barely talks to me. then Cait. i would have really liked to be her freiend more. she never really gave me the time of day, and she still owes me 2 bucks. when i see her at school, and i say hi, even tho im standing RIGHT next to her, she kinda gives me a weird look like "uh...leave me alone." like i said, i kinda wish me and her could have more to our "friendship". then there are others...like Danielle and erin. well, actually erin is kinda close. we hug and kiss each other almost every day. Hmmm...theres Kai, corey s, greg, alex, corey k, Lauren p, alexa (whose b-day i didnt ever get invited to), and a few others. Everyone's drifting, and no one cares anymore. now (and prolly always has been) the cool thing is to drink and smoke. im not into that shit. the people who i thought were really close, or at least closer than most are turning into druggies. i have a feeling my party is gonna be kinda dull this year. maybe i just wont even have one. it's not like anyone would notice anyways. im just another face in the crowd. another fish in the ocean. i dont even have a set "group" who i hang out with anymore. high school sucks for this reason. i feel kinda lonely and bored at lunch. i wish i had 6th period lunch. almost everyone i know is there. no one prolly is gonna be reading this anyways. its just my form of venting. anyhoo...bye. i wont bother so say "i love you all" cuz i wont be getting it back.