Holy Shit I have a journal!
Yes, it is true, I finally made a live journal...and you thought I was lying when I said I would get on live journal.... ;) Can you believe the only reason I hadn't done it was because I couldn't think of a name? And then I finally thought of one and then I was like dude, I don't even know if I am a psy-chick anymore, but then I was like, whatever. I got tired of dreathebigg. It didn't make sense any more. You know. Anyway, where do I start, where do I begin? So much to say..... well first of all, I want to thank you girls for all of the boy advice. Very, very helpful. It turns out that things aren't going to work out with the dude I met on the bus but it is for the best. I guess I could start with boys. Everyone likes talking about boys. I get the most responses when I talk about boys. :) Yeah, boys are funny especially when you are on a date with them. They do all sorts of creepy stuff and I don't even know if they are aware of it or not. Have you ever been out with a guy and then suddenly he gets all serious and gives you this "i am trying to seduce you look?" You know what I am talking about? I always want to laugh or something when it happens, even though it isn't funny. I guess it wouldn't be funny but it is just that I am never thinking what they are thinking when it happens and so it is absurd. Absurd....like when you see someone that is talking animatedly to themselves and you are wondering what is going on and then you realize they are on the cell phone. You know? absurd like that. I mean, it is like i am sitting there thinking of all of that and they have no idea.... I guess if I wanted to be seduced it would be different. ha ha. And then, if they are trying to be sexy, they will say something like.... yeah, Halloween is coming up....I'm going to be a vampire...I love being a vampire....and it is so overtly sexual it is funny. Especially when I pretend that I don't get it, which is what I do because it is easier that way. When this dude said that I was like, yeah, I was a bumble bee last halloween. Not sexy. No. Not even a little bit. But dudes or at least this dude don't/didn't get it. Oh well. Anyway, the dude was totally nice, but I don't think he liked me so much because of my personality....you know? I just had this feeling or rather it was so blatantly obvious.... So I just decided to let it go. No big deal. It was a good experience going out on a random date. Now I know I can be myself and it isn't weird. So yeah. So apparently, I look Turkish, or foreign or something. Two Turkish guys hit on me last week. For real. Never in my life have I been hit on at UT and then suddenly, bam! I was like what the *@**! And seriously, I am not bragging about being hit on, because it has never happened before. I am just shocked, that is all. So yeah, I was putting up fliers for this organization I am in and this dude was like, hey can i borrow some tape? and I was like yeah. And then he was like, "are you from here?" what? "are you from America?" Yes. "Oh, I am Turkish, I am from turkey....have you ever had Turkish coffee?" Then he gave me a card of the "Balkan Band" that he is in which consists of a clarinet, zurna, key board, etc. etc. So random. I was in a hurry so I accidentally gave him my phone number. No turkish coffee for me. The other dude I met at this salsa dance festival thing I went to with my friend Jenny and Dos. I almost busted out laughing when the guy told me he was from turkey. He also asked me where I was from. I am from here. Anyway, boys. Other than that, life is ok. Trying to figure things out. Doin the school thing. Tryin not to stress, getting better at it. Reading this book called "Potatoes not Prozac". Feel like cussing a lot lately. Don't do it, but just feel like it. But that is about all for now. I would write more but I should really go now. Peace!