Emily Manbeck
Today on a visit with my alzheimers plagued grandmother she mentioned to me the importance of keeping a journal and the innability to really retain what goes on in our daily live's without one. I need to update this more often. I think this moment in my life is a good one to habitualize daily writings. We'll see if I can keep up. My level of commitment to things needs to improve. Let's start with something simple.
Two days ago I found out I was accepted into Columbia's MFA acting program (I still feel like by some mistake.) In addition they offered me a $10,000 fellowship. Caught me by surprise in a big way. I've been deliberating over the past 48 hours about the pros and cons of going...basically the only con is taking out up to $70,000 worth of loans. I also don't want my parents to feel obligated to stretch themselves financially to support me as much as possible. I'm ecstatic about making this goal for myself. It basically means that I must stop spending money NOW as much as possible. I also need to find a job during the rest of my time at Rice, and possibly TWO jobs during the summer making the most money that I possibly can. It's going to be a wonderful time in my life to focus inward on something that I need to do, and teach myself a level of work ethic and commitment that I can retain. This is my chance to start doing something special. New York FUCKIN City, here I come. I'm gonna take that city by storm and suck it right into my lungs. We're gonna be blood brothers, you'll see.