this time last year

[dreamzz823]

last year i wrote an entry right before my math final, so figured i may as well continue the tradition. its been more than a year i believe, and things are so incredibly different. before my math final last year i had so much to look forward to, soph year (year of hell) being over, london, nice, canada, a long summer... it seemed like there was so much out there waiting for me to discover and do and enjoy... and i did! i had the time of my life last summer.. and since then i've experienced so many new (and different.. *mal) things. i've learned a shitload more about boys, about doing stupid things, about friendships, about independence and i wouldn't be who i am now without all that. this year before my final, it no longer feels like everything's awaiting to start fresh, but everything is awaiting to finish and wrap up. the summer is not holding new exciting experiences, but work and college interviews and a segway to next year, our senior year, where we're going to end the twelve years spent in westborough schools... and then we'll graduate and once again we'll have that feeling of closure, but with a new beginning just around the corner, unlike this summer. i think i'm ready though... it may still be a year away, but i'm ready for that closure, its definitely a process, and its already started, and it kinda feels good.

sam this entry is all your fault.. your contemplativeness caught on!!