Seniors as of Tomorrow
this is my train of thought lately:
seniors-> graduate -> college -> real world -> death
kinda morbid huh? it seems like as soon as next year hits, life is practically over, when in reality its only starting... i love how i skip right over everything and just think bout the end of it all. i think it might stem from my fear of failure, that i'm afraid its all going by so fast and that i need to accomplish so much and its starting to come to the time when i'm really going to have to do accomplish all that i've made goals for.
on a completely different note, i love how i'm the person people always end up coming to talk to about shit, in the past two days i've had three come to me with problems and two of them came crying. i don't even know its that i have anything especially profound to say, in fact i know i don't, i think its just the fact that i'm willing to listen and sympathize, i'm a good shoulder. i'm really glad i can do that for people, it makes me feel like i make some sort of difference to people, or at least cheer them up a bit. at the same time, i'm eternally grateful i also have people that i know i can turn to and whine and bitch to... otherwise i don't nkow how i'd ever survive. i think i learned that last year with all the shit with my parents, just knowing that there are people you can cry to or talk to or even just know that if you ever do need to talk they're there... i wouldn't have gotten through that time without people like that. i really hope i am able to make friends like that in college.
got schedules today... mornings are going to SUCK
first period- pre calc lightbody
second period- physics honors
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!
oh and if anyone besides ppl doing Relay For Life read this,
COME TO IMPROV TROUPE SHOW ON FRIDAY @ 7, IT'S FREE!!
seniors-> graduate -> college -> real world -> death
kinda morbid huh? it seems like as soon as next year hits, life is practically over, when in reality its only starting... i love how i skip right over everything and just think bout the end of it all. i think it might stem from my fear of failure, that i'm afraid its all going by so fast and that i need to accomplish so much and its starting to come to the time when i'm really going to have to do accomplish all that i've made goals for.
on a completely different note, i love how i'm the person people always end up coming to talk to about shit, in the past two days i've had three come to me with problems and two of them came crying. i don't even know its that i have anything especially profound to say, in fact i know i don't, i think its just the fact that i'm willing to listen and sympathize, i'm a good shoulder. i'm really glad i can do that for people, it makes me feel like i make some sort of difference to people, or at least cheer them up a bit. at the same time, i'm eternally grateful i also have people that i know i can turn to and whine and bitch to... otherwise i don't nkow how i'd ever survive. i think i learned that last year with all the shit with my parents, just knowing that there are people you can cry to or talk to or even just know that if you ever do need to talk they're there... i wouldn't have gotten through that time without people like that. i really hope i am able to make friends like that in college.
got schedules today... mornings are going to SUCK
first period- pre calc lightbody
second period- physics honors
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!
oh and if anyone besides ppl doing Relay For Life read this,
COME TO IMPROV TROUPE SHOW ON FRIDAY @ 7, IT'S FREE!!