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Well, first off to all the mommy's or soon to be one...HAPPY BELATED MOTHERS DAY! Hope you all had a good one.
Now moving one, someone made a comment on their LJ, about me, having a good time and to be careful in not getting hurt with these new guys, and it made me think. (sorry moms i had to use u)
Anyway, there is something that i haven't made clear to any one, not even my family. Just because i'm going out, having fun, dating, drinking, getting high every once in a while....not...lol. Does not mean i'm having sex with them. Believe me, the last thing on my mind is that...wtf? Who the hell i'm am i kidding, i want to have sex, fuck it's been 5 months since my separtion, and it's been 7 since i've done anything. I feel like a born again virgin...lol. But in all honesty i'm proud of my self. I used to have sex with guys just to be accepted, and now, i'm the one setting the rules. Which is kinda bad and sad cause i want a bf, but i haven't found the guy that meets my standards. I'm being careful in who is going to be in my life. Like moms said "be careful not to get hurt or used" that is exactly what i don't want to happen, get used, which is why, i'm saying no! Hard to do, but i'm handling...lol. But in all honesty, i want a true man, not a child, a boy, i don't want what i had before, i want something better, and i know i'm going to get it, because i'm being careful.
well that's all the time i have now, post later.
Now moving one, someone made a comment on their LJ, about me, having a good time and to be careful in not getting hurt with these new guys, and it made me think. (sorry moms i had to use u)
Anyway, there is something that i haven't made clear to any one, not even my family. Just because i'm going out, having fun, dating, drinking, getting high every once in a while....not...lol. Does not mean i'm having sex with them. Believe me, the last thing on my mind is that...wtf? Who the hell i'm am i kidding, i want to have sex, fuck it's been 5 months since my separtion, and it's been 7 since i've done anything. I feel like a born again virgin...lol. But in all honesty i'm proud of my self. I used to have sex with guys just to be accepted, and now, i'm the one setting the rules. Which is kinda bad and sad cause i want a bf, but i haven't found the guy that meets my standards. I'm being careful in who is going to be in my life. Like moms said "be careful not to get hurt or used" that is exactly what i don't want to happen, get used, which is why, i'm saying no! Hard to do, but i'm handling...lol. But in all honesty, i want a true man, not a child, a boy, i don't want what i had before, i want something better, and i know i'm going to get it, because i'm being careful.
well that's all the time i have now, post later.