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The more i think about it, the more i convince my self that i need to move out of my moms house. I'm staying quiet and just to avoied argument, but i'm tired of josh telling me how to act, how to look, how to breathe. i'm tired of marisol being such a pain in the ass, she is only 13 and i already can't stand her. she has a big mouth and is always making someo stupid smart ass remark and makes people look stupid infront of others. i don't know and don't care how juan and josh could stand it, but i'm don't, i'm through with putting up with her bullshit. not to mention if you do it to her, here comes josh to the rescue and makes me look like the dumb one infront of people. i'm so sick of it. i've had enough! Where is my mom in between all this, well she doesn't say anything. she is nuetral, but when it comes time for her to actually say something i'm the one that has to pay for it. it's not fair.
I've stop going to church, i've stop reading, i've stop praying, i need to start doing these things again, i felt good and full of joy when i did, and now i'm just starting to feel angry and depressed. the smallest things irratate me again, but that is why i lock my self in the room and don't talk to anyone.
if you're a believer of god and pray, please pray for me to change for the best. cause the way things are going i'm going to end up hating my two younger siblings and start getting mad at my mom, which i know is not good.
I've stop going to church, i've stop reading, i've stop praying, i need to start doing these things again, i felt good and full of joy when i did, and now i'm just starting to feel angry and depressed. the smallest things irratate me again, but that is why i lock my self in the room and don't talk to anyone.
if you're a believer of god and pray, please pray for me to change for the best. cause the way things are going i'm going to end up hating my two younger siblings and start getting mad at my mom, which i know is not good.