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I'm here. Alive and doing better than ever. So many things are finally falling into place. I've been having a good time. focusing on my self and my goals. Working hard at acomplishing them.
things lined up:
1. Should be getting a car next week...yay! which means i should be getting a job the following week...double yay!
2. working hard on losing the weight...so far 8lbs lost and losing. I'm running almost every night, and eating a lot better. Not to mention i've stopped drinking soda. YAY!
3. Isaias is almost out of my system. As long as i don't see him i do good. I haven't had any bad days, which is great. I"ve been really focused in reading my book and finishing it, to finally start the other one...lol.
I'm going to church and actually enjoy going there...lol.
I'm no longer sleeping in, which in a way is good, but it sucks, cause i miss sleeping in...lol.
I've realized that i have great friends, wish i had more, but i'm happy with the ones i have right now. They are awesome people!
Well counting down for my birthday. only one month and 11 days left for my bday...woohoo, i'm getting old. Terrance is coming down for my bday...uh-oh! yeah, he is going to meet my family. BUT HE IS ONLY MY FRIEND! that is it, i keep telling every one. I don't want them to think that i've moved on so fast and not let time to heal. I'm still hurt and i still miss isaias, in all honestly i did love him, but hated his attitude, but i'm not over him completely, but both my family and terrance know that i'm not ready for anything serious. but i'm happy that he is taking time to come and see me...i feel special. and i deserve a bit of happyness.
over all i'm doing great. just working on keeping my head up straight and moving forward with a positive attitude. "PAYDAY IS COMING" that is something that i keep telling my self. My PAYDAY!
things lined up:
1. Should be getting a car next week...yay! which means i should be getting a job the following week...double yay!
2. working hard on losing the weight...so far 8lbs lost and losing. I'm running almost every night, and eating a lot better. Not to mention i've stopped drinking soda. YAY!
3. Isaias is almost out of my system. As long as i don't see him i do good. I haven't had any bad days, which is great. I"ve been really focused in reading my book and finishing it, to finally start the other one...lol.
I'm going to church and actually enjoy going there...lol.
I'm no longer sleeping in, which in a way is good, but it sucks, cause i miss sleeping in...lol.
I've realized that i have great friends, wish i had more, but i'm happy with the ones i have right now. They are awesome people!
Well counting down for my birthday. only one month and 11 days left for my bday...woohoo, i'm getting old. Terrance is coming down for my bday...uh-oh! yeah, he is going to meet my family. BUT HE IS ONLY MY FRIEND! that is it, i keep telling every one. I don't want them to think that i've moved on so fast and not let time to heal. I'm still hurt and i still miss isaias, in all honestly i did love him, but hated his attitude, but i'm not over him completely, but both my family and terrance know that i'm not ready for anything serious. but i'm happy that he is taking time to come and see me...i feel special. and i deserve a bit of happyness.
over all i'm doing great. just working on keeping my head up straight and moving forward with a positive attitude. "PAYDAY IS COMING" that is something that i keep telling my self. My PAYDAY!