Bah humbug!
I'm gonna go all Scrooge this year and I feel kind of bad about it, but I just don't have the energy for the holidays. My family lives hours away and I have neither a car nor a license (did I mention that I'm no longer legally allowed to drive?). Shawn also has to make a four hour round trip (in the opposite direction) on most holidays to pick up his son or drop him off.
And let's not forget holidays are all about food. Turkey, ham, pies, stuffing, mashed potatoes, etc., etc. And I can't eat a damn bit of it without getting violently ill. I'd have to bring my own food everywhere I went because the concept of fat free holiday dishes just doesn't exist in most people's minds. Sure, I could OD on cranberry jelly. Maybe eat the stuffing and mashed potatoes if someone is willing to make them with no butter or fat filled ingredients. But that's about it. I'd have to sit there and watch everyone divulge in the gluttony that now appears to be forever forbidden to me. Yes, I'm bitter. :P I think most people would be. As much as I try to get over it I just can't.
I can't even get happy over my new figure. Everyone's always telling me how great I look now but I can only respond with crap like "That's because I'm dieing."
Bitter, bitter, bitter. I don't want this bitterness ruling my life. I want happiness to rule it. I am happy in some areas of my life. Shawn has taught me I'm worth loving and he reminds me of that every single night, even if he doesn't realize it. I have friends that care about me. My cats are a bright spot in my life as well.
And let's not forget about one of the world's most impressive collections of pirated gaming warez. :P
Eminizer Scrooge! You will be visited by three ghosts this very night!
And let's not forget holidays are all about food. Turkey, ham, pies, stuffing, mashed potatoes, etc., etc. And I can't eat a damn bit of it without getting violently ill. I'd have to bring my own food everywhere I went because the concept of fat free holiday dishes just doesn't exist in most people's minds. Sure, I could OD on cranberry jelly. Maybe eat the stuffing and mashed potatoes if someone is willing to make them with no butter or fat filled ingredients. But that's about it. I'd have to sit there and watch everyone divulge in the gluttony that now appears to be forever forbidden to me. Yes, I'm bitter. :P I think most people would be. As much as I try to get over it I just can't.
I can't even get happy over my new figure. Everyone's always telling me how great I look now but I can only respond with crap like "That's because I'm dieing."
Bitter, bitter, bitter. I don't want this bitterness ruling my life. I want happiness to rule it. I am happy in some areas of my life. Shawn has taught me I'm worth loving and he reminds me of that every single night, even if he doesn't realize it. I have friends that care about me. My cats are a bright spot in my life as well.
And let's not forget about one of the world's most impressive collections of pirated gaming warez. :P
Eminizer Scrooge! You will be visited by three ghosts this very night!