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I get to go home for thanksgiving in 9 hours and i get to get my phone fixed hopefully. I am procrastinating getting my paper for cdo done i also have to clean my room up and pack my car. I find myself pretending to be happy for family more and more. As most of you know (or maybe not) I changed my major for the final time and i am going to be a speech pathologist. I am as scared as hell to do this. Because for as long as i could rememeber i wanted to teach and i am going down a whole new road. It is scary its unchartered territory. My mom supports me as well as my dad. My friends all tell me once i have diploma in my hands to tell them what it says so they know! But my aunts and uncles.... they always question me why are you doing this? your going to be in school forever.... my program is a 7 year program! that is start to finsh including a masters program and paid intership type thing! I am on year three! thats for years left essentially, unless i take some summer classes and spring ones too, which is a possiblity. teaching is 5 years not including my masters program.... I mean i am as indecisive as hell! I finally make a desion its scary i am not going to lie about it ither. I never thought i would not be a teacher. but i guess things happen for a reason. At this point i dont know what that is yet. I guess what i am asking for is support not doubt. I dont not love my family any less but it hurts that i have to explain myself to them and i dont want to have to explain myself to my friends...as crazy as i sound sometimes... I know. It just feels good to be confident on a decision for once. I want to do this and I dont know why i need people to approve.... i guess thats how i am.... as the song goes "have a little faith in me"