I feel Homeless
I had to come into the city to work today and wanted to go out to dinner, but sadly I cant seem to find anyone to go with... more like i cant really think of anyone to go with. This has made me ponder a bit. I was so hell bent on moving up to the city before, now really why was that, because i love the city (well yes thats one reason) but the more important one is friends... but maybe i dont have as many friends up here as i had thought... hmm not to mention now the deal with my job, eh i guess ill have to explain the deal with that.
So i am currently an independent computer consultant that works for a firm up in the city. Currently i get a fairly decent stream of work/clients, and i get a modest rate of $40 an hour. My goal is to have atleast 10 hours a week, that way im working as much as a 40 hour week at $10 an hour (which is what i have made at previous jobs). Anyways, my boss now wants me to have more hours, but less pay (with promise of it going back up) i might get a cut to down as low as $15 an hour, but with a set number of hours... it might be a good deal, or it might be me working for cheap im not so sure yet. For a small nominal fee (probably a couple thousand in the long run) I can branch out on my own and do my own computer consulting. I am fairly confident about that working out for me, just not sure if thats what i want to do yet. One catch, if I end up leaving the company i work for then I might not be able to work in sf at least not doing consulting work.
So all that being said, where do i fit in? im not sure right now. i hate moving, im never very good at making new friends and fitting in. Once people meet me its not too hard for me to become very friendly and stuff, its just meeting them i always have a hard time with. I do have a few friends in sf, but why should i move here if i cant work in this area and the few friends that I have rarely ever contact me... i realyl dont know where i fit in any more these days.
So i am currently an independent computer consultant that works for a firm up in the city. Currently i get a fairly decent stream of work/clients, and i get a modest rate of $40 an hour. My goal is to have atleast 10 hours a week, that way im working as much as a 40 hour week at $10 an hour (which is what i have made at previous jobs). Anyways, my boss now wants me to have more hours, but less pay (with promise of it going back up) i might get a cut to down as low as $15 an hour, but with a set number of hours... it might be a good deal, or it might be me working for cheap im not so sure yet. For a small nominal fee (probably a couple thousand in the long run) I can branch out on my own and do my own computer consulting. I am fairly confident about that working out for me, just not sure if thats what i want to do yet. One catch, if I end up leaving the company i work for then I might not be able to work in sf at least not doing consulting work.
So all that being said, where do i fit in? im not sure right now. i hate moving, im never very good at making new friends and fitting in. Once people meet me its not too hard for me to become very friendly and stuff, its just meeting them i always have a hard time with. I do have a few friends in sf, but why should i move here if i cant work in this area and the few friends that I have rarely ever contact me... i realyl dont know where i fit in any more these days.