Gay Church... but where do I fit in?
My friend Nate came out here this weekend, for those of you who dont know about Nate, he is a kick ass gay cook, he makes some of the yummiest food ever. He cooked on Saturday night and man it was soo good! i saved some left overs if u want them, mmm chicken and cake... yummy times for sure!
Anyways on to my point, I went with Nate to a gay church tonight. It was very interesting, I didnt feel as out of place as I thought I would (tho the guy in the Kilt did scare me a bit haha) From my living in San Francisco I feel I really have become more comfortable with the Gay Community and gay friends... that might sound silly to some, but it is painfully aware that as a society we have yet to full embrace homosexuality into a community. I am full accepting, i love all my gay friends as much as the straight ones :-) so all in all it was an interesting experience, yet for some reason it put me in an odd contemplative mood, where i started to ponder....
Where do i fit in.
This is what I have been trying to figure out for a long time, but it hit me hard on sunday for some reason. this weekend I saw my good friend julia, she always makes me smile hehe, and we talked about life... I have decided that I am happy with my job/financial situation, I am doing well in that regard, not working to much as to not be able to relax, but at the same time im able to pay my bills and still go out and have fun. Relationships? friends and romantic are not so well... I try really hard to meet people, and fit in around here at USF but it just doesnt seem to work too well, i mean i dont know, people are often times so complicated. I just have this strong desire to connect with someone, to be able to talk to them about anything... and that seems to be really hard to find.
Thats prolly came out all wrong, I dunno, I just feel really down today, i think I am just going to go home after my meeting and sleep... *sigh
Anyways on to my point, I went with Nate to a gay church tonight. It was very interesting, I didnt feel as out of place as I thought I would (tho the guy in the Kilt did scare me a bit haha) From my living in San Francisco I feel I really have become more comfortable with the Gay Community and gay friends... that might sound silly to some, but it is painfully aware that as a society we have yet to full embrace homosexuality into a community. I am full accepting, i love all my gay friends as much as the straight ones :-) so all in all it was an interesting experience, yet for some reason it put me in an odd contemplative mood, where i started to ponder....
Where do i fit in.
This is what I have been trying to figure out for a long time, but it hit me hard on sunday for some reason. this weekend I saw my good friend julia, she always makes me smile hehe, and we talked about life... I have decided that I am happy with my job/financial situation, I am doing well in that regard, not working to much as to not be able to relax, but at the same time im able to pay my bills and still go out and have fun. Relationships? friends and romantic are not so well... I try really hard to meet people, and fit in around here at USF but it just doesnt seem to work too well, i mean i dont know, people are often times so complicated. I just have this strong desire to connect with someone, to be able to talk to them about anything... and that seems to be really hard to find.
Thats prolly came out all wrong, I dunno, I just feel really down today, i think I am just going to go home after my meeting and sleep... *sigh