Happy Days are coming...~*
My life.. lately, has been full of changes.
Changes i chose to make on my own, and changes that are uncontrolled by myself.
I used to be someone who is resistent to change. In fact, if you ask me to change, its like asking me to be an eraser. (that didn't make sense but you know what i mean)
Well, basically, i'm someone who doesn't adjust well to changes from the norm. I suppose this is me, growing up.. letting go.. having a different view in life?
Those who know me better know what i've been through.. dad falling sick.. dissapointment in relationships.. dissapointment in job.. basically, the world.
I went from guy to guy.. went on dates..met lots of crap..
Until, i met Chulalongkorn. :)
*for non-history buffs, Chulalongkorn is the fifth king of the Chakri dynasty of Thailand, and regarded as one of the greatest Kings in Thailand. If not for him, today, we wouldn't be speaking english to Thais*
"Met" has a very different meaning here. But oh, my world is filled with so much colour and sugar candy that my brain is numbed from the intense saccharine love i'm getting.
Some of you ask/tell me.. "Are you letting yourself get hurt again?" "Are you sure you want to go into that again?" "He's another one... all men are the same.."
All i can say is.. this time.. the feeling is different. I don't hear empty words, i don't feel empty promises, and most of all, i don't feel afraid
Being afraid of a relationship is one thing.. being afraid of that someone you want to love is another thing. Being afraid that he'll do something to hurt you..is yet again.. another issue.
So many things to think of! BUT.... this time.. i'm not going to run away.. this time.. i want to try to make it work too .. this time... is going to be where i want to be, cause.. i'm not getting any younger, and, i'm tired of the games people play. (well now, who isn't?)
He's everything i'm not.. an entire opposite from me. (wow, surprised?) Seriously. No, he doesn't do music, he doesn't even know what he listens to sometimes.. and he likes Linkin Park. (yeah.. isn't it funny? Linkin Park? *makes a weird funny face*)
Oh well, I AM HAPPY!!!
Frogs are green, rainbows are coloured, rain is sweet, thunder is music, balloons are great! (MY BIRTHDAY IS TOMORROW!! I WANT ONE!!)
Basically, I am finally starting to feel happy. And its not even the slightest bit..its incredibly happy.. hopeful.. and looking forward for once, not backward anymore.
Sometimes the past catches up on me.. but i'll keep on running (speaking of which, i have to run not only metaphorically..but....seriously start running.)
I miss my friends.. i've been trying to go out whenever i can.. but it seems like its never enough. I feel like i'm in a whirlwind..
Don't you all wish there's MORE TIME? OK. when life is happy, MORE TIME. when life isn't.. OMG. Life is really irritating.
ok. this post is long enough... NEXXT! :) OH! u all must be dying to know..
WHO IS CHULALONGKORN.. STOP CHANGING THE SUBJECT!!
I feel like blogging about him all the time now. Geez. Ok.. next few posts might be him. Or maybe you won't hear about me anymore. HAH! I love myself too much, that won't happen :P
Changes i chose to make on my own, and changes that are uncontrolled by myself.
I used to be someone who is resistent to change. In fact, if you ask me to change, its like asking me to be an eraser. (that didn't make sense but you know what i mean)
Well, basically, i'm someone who doesn't adjust well to changes from the norm. I suppose this is me, growing up.. letting go.. having a different view in life?
Those who know me better know what i've been through.. dad falling sick.. dissapointment in relationships.. dissapointment in job.. basically, the world.
I went from guy to guy.. went on dates..met lots of crap..
Until, i met Chulalongkorn. :)
*for non-history buffs, Chulalongkorn is the fifth king of the Chakri dynasty of Thailand, and regarded as one of the greatest Kings in Thailand. If not for him, today, we wouldn't be speaking english to Thais*
"Met" has a very different meaning here. But oh, my world is filled with so much colour and sugar candy that my brain is numbed from the intense saccharine love i'm getting.
Some of you ask/tell me.. "Are you letting yourself get hurt again?" "Are you sure you want to go into that again?" "He's another one... all men are the same.."
All i can say is.. this time.. the feeling is different. I don't hear empty words, i don't feel empty promises, and most of all, i don't feel afraid
Being afraid of a relationship is one thing.. being afraid of that someone you want to love is another thing. Being afraid that he'll do something to hurt you..is yet again.. another issue.
So many things to think of! BUT.... this time.. i'm not going to run away.. this time.. i want to try to make it work too .. this time... is going to be where i want to be, cause.. i'm not getting any younger, and, i'm tired of the games people play. (well now, who isn't?)
He's everything i'm not.. an entire opposite from me. (wow, surprised?) Seriously. No, he doesn't do music, he doesn't even know what he listens to sometimes.. and he likes Linkin Park. (yeah.. isn't it funny? Linkin Park? *makes a weird funny face*)
Oh well, I AM HAPPY!!!
Frogs are green, rainbows are coloured, rain is sweet, thunder is music, balloons are great! (MY BIRTHDAY IS TOMORROW!! I WANT ONE!!)
Basically, I am finally starting to feel happy. And its not even the slightest bit..its incredibly happy.. hopeful.. and looking forward for once, not backward anymore.
Sometimes the past catches up on me.. but i'll keep on running (speaking of which, i have to run not only metaphorically..but....seriously start running.)
I miss my friends.. i've been trying to go out whenever i can.. but it seems like its never enough. I feel like i'm in a whirlwind..
Don't you all wish there's MORE TIME? OK. when life is happy, MORE TIME. when life isn't.. OMG. Life is really irritating.
ok. this post is long enough... NEXXT! :) OH! u all must be dying to know..
WHO IS CHULALONGKORN.. STOP CHANGING THE SUBJECT!!
I feel like blogging about him all the time now. Geez. Ok.. next few posts might be him. Or maybe you won't hear about me anymore. HAH! I love myself too much, that won't happen :P