Exhausted..
I'm so tired..... out of work hours still have to finish the backdrop for the concert which has an embedded movie which is also done by me..
Then the other location not enough staff..have to keep going over... off day also have to go back... not have to.. but if don't help then colleague who's also a good friend has to suffer..
Same time.. fighting bad feelings all the time.. i'm just going to break apart but i keep telling myself, no, no, no, no. Don't let him, or thoughts of him get to me. Don't let him make my life so miserable.. each day waking up and feeling so sad.. and not being able to sleep..
Bah.. need a breather.. need a break.. need to be alone, disconnected from everything, everyone. Same time.. i need people so badly.. to remind me i still have friends, i still have a life.. i still have them.
Mum made milo for me out of the blue last night at 1am.. strange eh.. but.. it made me smile. I was annoyed..cause i didn't want to drink.. she's always doing things like making some food or beverage when you already say no, you don't want.. but... that's just her. She's also been very tired lately.. they've been quarreling.. i feel so tired and weary when i hear them shouting, especially my dad.. he shouts .. and i know they are both very bitter about life.. especially now that he is sick..
I keep asking myself why.. does life have to be so.. unhappy? It doesn't have to be, does it?
Then the other location not enough staff..have to keep going over... off day also have to go back... not have to.. but if don't help then colleague who's also a good friend has to suffer..
Same time.. fighting bad feelings all the time.. i'm just going to break apart but i keep telling myself, no, no, no, no. Don't let him, or thoughts of him get to me. Don't let him make my life so miserable.. each day waking up and feeling so sad.. and not being able to sleep..
Bah.. need a breather.. need a break.. need to be alone, disconnected from everything, everyone. Same time.. i need people so badly.. to remind me i still have friends, i still have a life.. i still have them.
Mum made milo for me out of the blue last night at 1am.. strange eh.. but.. it made me smile. I was annoyed..cause i didn't want to drink.. she's always doing things like making some food or beverage when you already say no, you don't want.. but... that's just her. She's also been very tired lately.. they've been quarreling.. i feel so tired and weary when i hear them shouting, especially my dad.. he shouts .. and i know they are both very bitter about life.. especially now that he is sick..
I keep asking myself why.. does life have to be so.. unhappy? It doesn't have to be, does it?