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In so in the end, the mobilisation did not materialize. Which means the next period of mob may really be activated, and that is worse cuz it is nearer to the exams, the time where most of the shit is ie mugging, term papers and projects are imminent. Wasted my morning and early afternoon waiting for this bloody mob, the SAF is really destroying males' lives in every stages. No, I should say, the Singapore society and the whole capitalist/totalitarian/oppresive and definitely non-democratic system we are living in is threatening to incarcerate the very fibres of my being, resulting inevitably in the devastation of my zest for life itself. I really dread the coming of the day when I would feel enervated and totally jaded. And all these seemed to be caused by education where one gains knowledge and steps out of the well of ignorance and view the world in its utter gloom and aberration. And it is further compounded by the fact that I am helpless in changing anything about the current state of affairs. It is precisely the fact that I am able to discern Singapore for its de facto abomination and my own incapacitated role that worries me. Some may say that I think too much, that as long as I have a goal in life, and as I live meaningfully pursuing my goals, accompanied by friends and family, life will be better, perhaps even bordering on bliss. Others may argue that since I am unable to change anything about this system, why not make the most of it and maybe one day, I could be in a privileged position, and hence be at the top rungs of society. Maybe, just maybe. But somehow, all these just seem to me as an excuse to escape from the real problem, that our society is really insolvent. Maybe I would feel happier living if I approach life as prescibed by others, but still that does not change the fact that our society is really fuck-up. Thinking too much? Probably, but then again, maybe not...