The way that summer fades underneath the weight of it all...
My life has gotten weird.
I'll start with the good:
My weekend was filled with fun and friends. I spent Saturday night going from one halloween party to another. I first stopped by Melissa and Danielle's apartment, watched a little "Santa's Slay," and talked to a bunch of La Salle people. From there I joined my favorite senior corps members in West Philly... where i got... drunk, very very drunk. Vodka and Cranberry is either my best friend, or my worst enemy... i haven't decided. It was really fun though. If I could figure out how, I would post some pics of the night, but i don't know how... so i won't.
The bad:
So Matt and I broke up. Yeah. Basically the distance thing was getting to him, and it wasn't that great for me either. I wish I could sit here and express exactly what I am feeling right now, but I can't. I've been hoping he would email me, want to talk it over, tell me this was a mistake... Right now, i am feeling very alone. I'm alone in my apartment, I'm stranded (more on this in a moment) in south philly while most of my friends are elsewhere, my family is two hours away, I am now single... I don't think I've ever been this alone. I don't like it.
The ugly:
FUCKING SEPTA IS ON STRIKE. Okay, think of all the busses, subways, trolleys, whatever the public transportation of choice in your city is, just stopped running. I have no way of getting to class. City Year is reduced to the world's biggest chinese fire drill of a carpool. We have to get about 200 people from all over the city and get them to their schools. So we're picking up people in their section of the city, transport them to the art museum where they then transfer into new vehicles, and then go to school. IT SUCKS. This strike also strands me in south philly unless I want to go out walking for miles.
The long and short of this entry is to say: Between still not sure what i'm doing with my apartment, the end of the only functional relationship i've ever been in, and septa sucking, i'm cranky.