I need help
Okay so... If you haven't assumed already I've been pretty depressed for the last couple months. Divorce changed my entire life and not necessarily in a good way either. I lost a family (Colin's), I lost a lot of friends and I lost a companion. So take those things away and pretty much all I have is me. For some reason I'm awful at calling people to hang out. I guess I was so depressed and sad for a while that I just... thought everyone should be calling ME and inviting ME places since I was the sad one. But that's just angsty and whiny. So... after reading Laura's post.... I too had some realizations.
Seeing In the Heights with Laura and Sarah was the first time since... probably when Brittany came to visit... that I had hung out with people outside of Morris. It had been so long since I had just spent time with people talking and laughing... Really like crying hysterical laughing. It's so crazy how much you bottle up and then don't realize it until you laugh like that. Who knew that me not paying attention to where I was going and Sarah pointing quietly out the window at the street I was supposed to turn on would be so hilarious.
I'm sad all the time and I'm sick of being sad. I dance twice a week which is definitely helpful. And I'm working out (although I didn't go all last week... oops) which also helps. I have sort of a routine which is Also good. But I'm not used to going home to an apartment of no one. I am not meant to be a loner. Some people like traveling alone. This is definitely Not me. I hate it. I spent like 12 hours in Barcelona by myself and it was horrible. And then I had to fly to Iceland, stay overnight, and then fly to the US by myself and it was ALSO horrible. (there's a post in here somewhere about that experience)
I don't really have a friend group anymore. Rachel has all her roommates and stolaf friends, Erika has Rachel Olm and Amanda and Sara Russell... so right there, my two best friends already have groups that they are part of. I would like a group to be in too. So if you have a group of friends and are looking for a fun, talkative, slightly judgmental asian girl to join your group, gimme a call!
PS Pandora.com is Fantastic.
Seeing In the Heights with Laura and Sarah was the first time since... probably when Brittany came to visit... that I had hung out with people outside of Morris. It had been so long since I had just spent time with people talking and laughing... Really like crying hysterical laughing. It's so crazy how much you bottle up and then don't realize it until you laugh like that. Who knew that me not paying attention to where I was going and Sarah pointing quietly out the window at the street I was supposed to turn on would be so hilarious.
I'm sad all the time and I'm sick of being sad. I dance twice a week which is definitely helpful. And I'm working out (although I didn't go all last week... oops) which also helps. I have sort of a routine which is Also good. But I'm not used to going home to an apartment of no one. I am not meant to be a loner. Some people like traveling alone. This is definitely Not me. I hate it. I spent like 12 hours in Barcelona by myself and it was horrible. And then I had to fly to Iceland, stay overnight, and then fly to the US by myself and it was ALSO horrible. (there's a post in here somewhere about that experience)
I don't really have a friend group anymore. Rachel has all her roommates and stolaf friends, Erika has Rachel Olm and Amanda and Sara Russell... so right there, my two best friends already have groups that they are part of. I would like a group to be in too. So if you have a group of friends and are looking for a fun, talkative, slightly judgmental asian girl to join your group, gimme a call!
PS Pandora.com is Fantastic.