It's still not easy

[dreamweaver939]

The hardest thing about the divorce... is realizing (and being reminded) that Colin's life is no longer a concern of mine. After 5 years of knowing everything that's happening in his life... not having any idea is startling. I never think about it until I inadvertently hear something about him, for instance, his going away party. I don't care that it's happening, I knew it would be happening, I obviously knew I would not be invited... but hearing it from Tyler's mom rather than Colin was still a shock. But what can I expect? I certainly don't expect him to call me and tell me about the major plans of his life.

It's like... for the most part I'm fine. But then something like that happens and I'm reminded that I might not be.

But I am.