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Busy busy busy... I feel like life has suddenly taken off.
It's pretty ironic how when I was younger, all I wanted to do was grow up...I wanted to be in college and live on my own, have my own job, pay for everything. Looking back on myself then, I think it's pretty odd. Most kids don't ever want to grow up. Now I'm really wishing I had taken it slower and soaked it all in.
It really sucks having to admit that.
It's funny how certain things hit you at odd times...I stayed late at work, life guarding the Ramblewood Swim Team Banquet, and at the end everyone got out of the pool and sat in front of this big projector screen. One of the parents, I think it was Mrs. Fisher, made a slideshow of pictures from all the meets and things like that. I could have left after everyone got out of the pool, but I really wanted to watch the slideshow for some reason.
So it's starts out showing the really young kids on the team and the first couple of meets, and then there is a memorial part for Anthony, although I wasn't friends with him, I still knew who he was, talked to him in one of my classes... he was a nice kid. After the memorial part, they showed all of the seniors, some of whom I know, from the time they were really little on the team until just this past year. It's crazy that me along with some of these other people are going to stop things like fun/competitive team sports, and we're going to be moving on to our careers...I mean, yeah, some might go on to collegic sports, but it'll never be the same. I almost feel this way about choir or theatre...It's never going to be like it was at Cherokee.
I really am leaving behind some of my favorite memories. I guess this is really the first time to admit it and actually believe it.
All I want is to be younger again, and have all the awesome memories of being a kid, all over again. I don't want responsibility or stress, all I want to worry about is when the next time I get to go outside and play with my friends.
Yeah, I'm really excited to move into the city with someone I've only really talked to once, and be a college student, but it's all coming so effin fast. I had to create a binder full of all my financial aid and how to work all the online crap, applications to work during the year, phone numbers and e-mails...It's crazy, and I'm doing it all by myself.
On a lighter note!
I went up to the Lake this past weekend...It was beautiful, perfect weather. I got some tubing and skiing in, as well as some sailing!!!!
Also I went to the beach the first time this summer! Jes and Lindsey had a house in Ocean City, and I stayed over night and for the next day...We had some fun :)
Hopefully I'll be able to post some pictures soon!
Enough of my rambling ...