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Last night was a big step for me...
I hold a lot in, but you can tell something is on my mind and bothering me. I guess it just takes the right person to make it come out. I struggle with letting my feelings out no matter how badly I want to get them off my chest.
Last night I got a lot off my chest about my worries of something dear to me not lasting, and my anger towards my family. It felt good. I realize that I think to much. Looking back 2 years ago, I thought much more then as I do now...I think I was just immature and insecure; normal, I suppose.
Im going through the motions trying to find out what I want in life and where I want to be. I know I'm not going to find it that way...but at the same time, I'm doing nothing to change it. Small changes are scarry. Going from something you've known for a long time and altering it the slightest bit, is really weird, and uncomfortable for me. But big change, going to something totally different is exciting for me.
I take life for granted, a lot. I wish I could see every day as a gift, but I don't. I want to know what that feels like. I want to feel like I cherish everything I do in one day and I want to do something different every day. I want to love life. I think that love will come in time. I think letting out my feelings will become easier in time. I think, thinking too much will fade away in time. I think I'll learn to let go and enjoy every minute of living one day. At least I hope I do. It's really hard right now, in this point and time of my life.
I want to grow up.
I love this picture.
I hold a lot in, but you can tell something is on my mind and bothering me. I guess it just takes the right person to make it come out. I struggle with letting my feelings out no matter how badly I want to get them off my chest.
Last night I got a lot off my chest about my worries of something dear to me not lasting, and my anger towards my family. It felt good. I realize that I think to much. Looking back 2 years ago, I thought much more then as I do now...I think I was just immature and insecure; normal, I suppose.
Im going through the motions trying to find out what I want in life and where I want to be. I know I'm not going to find it that way...but at the same time, I'm doing nothing to change it. Small changes are scarry. Going from something you've known for a long time and altering it the slightest bit, is really weird, and uncomfortable for me. But big change, going to something totally different is exciting for me.
I take life for granted, a lot. I wish I could see every day as a gift, but I don't. I want to know what that feels like. I want to feel like I cherish everything I do in one day and I want to do something different every day. I want to love life. I think that love will come in time. I think letting out my feelings will become easier in time. I think, thinking too much will fade away in time. I think I'll learn to let go and enjoy every minute of living one day. At least I hope I do. It's really hard right now, in this point and time of my life.
I want to grow up.
I love this picture.