Thankful. So Thankful.
I don't really ever feel comfortable making public posts, but I think I want this one out there for the world to see. If only because it is a post without malice or bad intent and I truly believe that above all else, Thanksgiving is a holiday that encompasses good will. I don't know why I feel this way....perhaps it's because Thanksgiving is a holiday universally celebrated, not so much as a religious thing, but as a family thing and while I don't really have my family, I have things to be thankful for and that's what this post is about.
1. The number one thing I am thankful for would have to be my mom. As ridiculous and crazy as she can be, she is there for me when no one else is. She supports me in everything I do and I know she loves me, regardless, of what happens. I don't know what I would do without her.
2. Christian. Best boyfriend ever. He puts up with my moods and me being irrational and he loves me. And while I'm not confident of many things, I'm confident in that and that has carried me through many a bad spell. Plus, he makes me feel safe and I love him beyond words.
3. My friends.
I am thankful for the new ones that I've met. I love meeting new people and I love you all. You're all awesome.
The old. Because we go through a lot of shit and a lot of horrible stuff gets thrown our way and through it all, we survive and we get stronger. ANd I'm constantly amazed at what the world can thrown at us and what we can survive. Also, we're kind of awesome :-P
The ones that were lost. It doesn't matter the circumstances under which we ended our friendship, if we were friends, it's because there were fun times had and when I needed you, you were there. We may have grown apart or there may have been other reasons, but I will remember the good times.
I guess Richard Blake can have a mention...I'm grateful for him because he (as corny as this sounds), he marches to the beat of his own drum and doesn't care what other people think. He just cares about his friends. All of them. And he's one of the nicest people ever.
4. Musical theatre and more specifically....Legally Blonde. The cast is incredible and sweet, the show is amazing and it's my therapy. And so many new friends and happy memories have come from it.
5. Honesty. A lot of my friends believe in brutal honesty and I'm grateful for it. People seem to think that we all sit around and talk about each other and that's just what we do and that we aren't real friends because of it. That's not true. It just makes us GIRLS. I sit there and I see people talk about how happy they are that their friends don't talk behind their backs....and if you're convinced of that, you're delusional. Instead, I choose to be content in knowing that if something is really bothering any of us, we will discuss it and it will be resolved. Also, I am thankful that I can sit sit here and say that people know what I think of them. I've told everyone my thoughts and if they choose to listen, that's a different story, but at least I say what's on my mind.
6. Max Brenner's. S'Mac. Union Square, you brought me these and I love you for that. I can't wait until winter when Jen and I can spend five dollars to sit in MAx Brenner's with our hug mugs. It was discovered too late last year to do this, but it will be awesome and I love Max Brenner's for having Nutella crepes and for being the scene for many a fun time. S'Mac....is S'Mac...nuff said.
It's not a long list, but really, that's what it is. I'm thankful for the people in my life. I don't really believe in addressing the details of any drama in my livejournal. If only because it accomplishes nothing and hurts people and it's a petty method of revenge. Why talk about someone in a journal they can't read and can't defend themselves in? It's unnecessary. But I will say this. On Thanksgiving, it's about being thankful for what you had in the past year. I've thought about it and while I wish certain friendships hadn't ended the way they did, I'm not sorry I had those friendships in the first place. I am profoundly grateful for the memories gained in the good times. I'm saddened by how people choose to look at things, and that some people don't look at it like that, but I bear them no ill will. ANd I guess I'm grateful for that as well. It's a sign of growing up and moving on, something I have big issues with. I hate change. I hate losing friends. I hate it. But I really love the people I'm surrounded with in my life right now and I wouldn't have some of them without change and without losing other people...
This entry turned into something else, but I hope at the end of it, everyone reading it, no matter who you are, comes away not upset. Some people will probably scoff at this entry or take it the wrong way, but those are the people that choose to look at things with anger and I can't change that.
I hope everyone has a Happy Thanksgiving.
1. The number one thing I am thankful for would have to be my mom. As ridiculous and crazy as she can be, she is there for me when no one else is. She supports me in everything I do and I know she loves me, regardless, of what happens. I don't know what I would do without her.
2. Christian. Best boyfriend ever. He puts up with my moods and me being irrational and he loves me. And while I'm not confident of many things, I'm confident in that and that has carried me through many a bad spell. Plus, he makes me feel safe and I love him beyond words.
3. My friends.
I am thankful for the new ones that I've met. I love meeting new people and I love you all. You're all awesome.
The old. Because we go through a lot of shit and a lot of horrible stuff gets thrown our way and through it all, we survive and we get stronger. ANd I'm constantly amazed at what the world can thrown at us and what we can survive. Also, we're kind of awesome :-P
The ones that were lost. It doesn't matter the circumstances under which we ended our friendship, if we were friends, it's because there were fun times had and when I needed you, you were there. We may have grown apart or there may have been other reasons, but I will remember the good times.
I guess Richard Blake can have a mention...I'm grateful for him because he (as corny as this sounds), he marches to the beat of his own drum and doesn't care what other people think. He just cares about his friends. All of them. And he's one of the nicest people ever.
4. Musical theatre and more specifically....Legally Blonde. The cast is incredible and sweet, the show is amazing and it's my therapy. And so many new friends and happy memories have come from it.
5. Honesty. A lot of my friends believe in brutal honesty and I'm grateful for it. People seem to think that we all sit around and talk about each other and that's just what we do and that we aren't real friends because of it. That's not true. It just makes us GIRLS. I sit there and I see people talk about how happy they are that their friends don't talk behind their backs....and if you're convinced of that, you're delusional. Instead, I choose to be content in knowing that if something is really bothering any of us, we will discuss it and it will be resolved. Also, I am thankful that I can sit sit here and say that people know what I think of them. I've told everyone my thoughts and if they choose to listen, that's a different story, but at least I say what's on my mind.
6. Max Brenner's. S'Mac. Union Square, you brought me these and I love you for that. I can't wait until winter when Jen and I can spend five dollars to sit in MAx Brenner's with our hug mugs. It was discovered too late last year to do this, but it will be awesome and I love Max Brenner's for having Nutella crepes and for being the scene for many a fun time. S'Mac....is S'Mac...nuff said.
It's not a long list, but really, that's what it is. I'm thankful for the people in my life. I don't really believe in addressing the details of any drama in my livejournal. If only because it accomplishes nothing and hurts people and it's a petty method of revenge. Why talk about someone in a journal they can't read and can't defend themselves in? It's unnecessary. But I will say this. On Thanksgiving, it's about being thankful for what you had in the past year. I've thought about it and while I wish certain friendships hadn't ended the way they did, I'm not sorry I had those friendships in the first place. I am profoundly grateful for the memories gained in the good times. I'm saddened by how people choose to look at things, and that some people don't look at it like that, but I bear them no ill will. ANd I guess I'm grateful for that as well. It's a sign of growing up and moving on, something I have big issues with. I hate change. I hate losing friends. I hate it. But I really love the people I'm surrounded with in my life right now and I wouldn't have some of them without change and without losing other people...
This entry turned into something else, but I hope at the end of it, everyone reading it, no matter who you are, comes away not upset. Some people will probably scoff at this entry or take it the wrong way, but those are the people that choose to look at things with anger and I can't change that.
I hope everyone has a Happy Thanksgiving.