Have you ever been alone in a crowded room? Well I'm here with you.
The past few days of my life have been tragic and beautiful.
I always have so much going on and when i open up livjournal im like
YES, time to spew out all i want in perfect sentences and phrases
with clever dialogue and wit. but that never really happens. and
anyone with a livejournal knows that. you have all this stuff you
wanna type out and when you get to the livejournal blank screen,
thats exactly what it stays for about 2 minutes...blank.
then you sit there like ugh why cant i express what i wanna.
but once you get going its grand.
moving on...
I am moving on. As much as i can, from who i used to be.
Someone told me that i seem fake lately. that, as an example,
if someone asked me if they were fat, i in the past wouldve probably
laughed and said yes, and that now i'd say no. and that since i wasnt
being loud and rude like ive been, that that makes me fake.
well i think that its a step toward growing up. not saying every little thing that comes to mind. I am not a boy, but i am not yet a man. I dont wanna be the loud kid who offends everyone anymore
i wanna be sweet and kind. and who's to say i cant teach myself liek that. if we never practiced any judgment and really did whatever we felt like it, the world would be so worse off than it already is.
so theres this girl, and i'm going to make her happy.
"The kitchen is cold but the coffee is warm
The sun is coming up
The day has just begun and you are already bored
You're bored of cheering me up, bored of calming me down, bored of drying my eyes
But there was once a time when you were the one
You were the blue of the sky
You came after the storm
You were the switch on the wall in the dark of the hall that I'm still fumbling for
Because I'm lost in the black
I don't know where I am
I have my arms stretched out in front and I'm calling your name just as loud as I can
And I know there are things of which we will never speak
And the questions can't be answered easily, but I want it to be easy
So just nod you head if the plans have changed
Shake it love, if they've stayed the same
Smile at me and I will stay
Start to cry and I'll go away
Just please don't leave me guessing
So you made me come
Then you sent me away like a messenger bird
So I circled the earth, blown away in the wind, but I always returned
With some new little song
Some sad story to tell of a brief love affair with a girl I compared to you and she failed
You said you don't want me to beg
Then said get down on your knees
Because you knew that I would if I'd do any good satisfying your needs
And I know all about those things we cannot speak
And just so you know, well they don't bother me
So you don't have to be worried
Just nod your head if the planes have changed
Shake it, love if they stay the same
Smile at me and I will stay
Start to cry and I'll go away
Just please don't leave me guessing
Shake it love, if some hope remains
Say the word and of course I'll stay
Roll you eyes and I'll go away, just please don't keep me guessing
Please don't leave me waiting "
bright eyes is amazing.
I always have so much going on and when i open up livjournal im like
YES, time to spew out all i want in perfect sentences and phrases
with clever dialogue and wit. but that never really happens. and
anyone with a livejournal knows that. you have all this stuff you
wanna type out and when you get to the livejournal blank screen,
thats exactly what it stays for about 2 minutes...blank.
then you sit there like ugh why cant i express what i wanna.
but once you get going its grand.
moving on...
I am moving on. As much as i can, from who i used to be.
Someone told me that i seem fake lately. that, as an example,
if someone asked me if they were fat, i in the past wouldve probably
laughed and said yes, and that now i'd say no. and that since i wasnt
being loud and rude like ive been, that that makes me fake.
well i think that its a step toward growing up. not saying every little thing that comes to mind. I am not a boy, but i am not yet a man. I dont wanna be the loud kid who offends everyone anymore
i wanna be sweet and kind. and who's to say i cant teach myself liek that. if we never practiced any judgment and really did whatever we felt like it, the world would be so worse off than it already is.
so theres this girl, and i'm going to make her happy.
"The kitchen is cold but the coffee is warm
The sun is coming up
The day has just begun and you are already bored
You're bored of cheering me up, bored of calming me down, bored of drying my eyes
But there was once a time when you were the one
You were the blue of the sky
You came after the storm
You were the switch on the wall in the dark of the hall that I'm still fumbling for
Because I'm lost in the black
I don't know where I am
I have my arms stretched out in front and I'm calling your name just as loud as I can
And I know there are things of which we will never speak
And the questions can't be answered easily, but I want it to be easy
So just nod you head if the plans have changed
Shake it love, if they've stayed the same
Smile at me and I will stay
Start to cry and I'll go away
Just please don't leave me guessing
So you made me come
Then you sent me away like a messenger bird
So I circled the earth, blown away in the wind, but I always returned
With some new little song
Some sad story to tell of a brief love affair with a girl I compared to you and she failed
You said you don't want me to beg
Then said get down on your knees
Because you knew that I would if I'd do any good satisfying your needs
And I know all about those things we cannot speak
And just so you know, well they don't bother me
So you don't have to be worried
Just nod your head if the planes have changed
Shake it, love if they stay the same
Smile at me and I will stay
Start to cry and I'll go away
Just please don't leave me guessing
Shake it love, if some hope remains
Say the word and of course I'll stay
Roll you eyes and I'll go away, just please don't keep me guessing
Please don't leave me waiting "
bright eyes is amazing.