Stressed
My bf is getting on my nerves. HE wants me to go, he doesn't want me to go. He's showing signs of compromise, and then everything pitfalls back to where we started. I don't know what to do anymore.
We were getting along great. He even said he was going to start treating me better than he did when we were here... Which now just seems like bs to get me to go up there faster.
But then yesterday we were having a casual conversation. And he was saying that his bro and cus might have to work the opposite schedule as him. I was like, that sucks. and he was like "yeah. but at least you're not up here yet. Bc i can't have you home all day alone with them.." I was like "why does that matter? not like i have any interest in them" and he was like "you think i should trust you?!" and i told him i did. then there was a pause... and i said to him "thing's aren't gonna change. you'll never change." and i gguess i hurt him, bc he was like "you're right. its a bad idea to come up here. stay there." and hung up on me.
I didn't hear from him at all, and when i finally got hold of him at 4pm today, he was like "don't call me anymore"
I don't know what to do. judging by what i know. he's just being bratty, and he'll get over it and call me back. but i'm not sure anymore. people tend to change. his point of view won't, but he might mean it this time. What if he found someone else? What if he met up with his ex or something?
it sucks not having anyone to talk to about this. and the sad part is i'm surrounded by people to talk to, i'm just sick of hearing the obvious truth.
I guess i want someone to listen to me, without bias. and give me advice.. but i know that's not possible. bc any advice i get will be to forget him. but i can't. everytime i look at my daughter, i see him. i miss him, and it sucks that's he's being such a jerk.
you think that since he claims he misses me, and he knows how hard it is for me to make this move, he'd at least make an effort to change a little.
I've noticed that the only person changing in this relationship is me. and it's not fair. I've abandoned everything i know, everyone i know, for this guy. my entire lifestyle changed for him. I've made so much sacrifice, and he doesn't see it. What's worse is that my relationships with friends took a huge plummit because of him, and i've been so depressed for so long about it.
and even now, when i have the freedom to do whatever i want, i can't. and many of my friends gave up on me. and the more i try to go back, i can't.
it's obvious what my solution should be, but i can't do it. i'm not strong enough yet.
We were getting along great. He even said he was going to start treating me better than he did when we were here... Which now just seems like bs to get me to go up there faster.
But then yesterday we were having a casual conversation. And he was saying that his bro and cus might have to work the opposite schedule as him. I was like, that sucks. and he was like "yeah. but at least you're not up here yet. Bc i can't have you home all day alone with them.." I was like "why does that matter? not like i have any interest in them" and he was like "you think i should trust you?!" and i told him i did. then there was a pause... and i said to him "thing's aren't gonna change. you'll never change." and i gguess i hurt him, bc he was like "you're right. its a bad idea to come up here. stay there." and hung up on me.
I didn't hear from him at all, and when i finally got hold of him at 4pm today, he was like "don't call me anymore"
I don't know what to do. judging by what i know. he's just being bratty, and he'll get over it and call me back. but i'm not sure anymore. people tend to change. his point of view won't, but he might mean it this time. What if he found someone else? What if he met up with his ex or something?
it sucks not having anyone to talk to about this. and the sad part is i'm surrounded by people to talk to, i'm just sick of hearing the obvious truth.
I guess i want someone to listen to me, without bias. and give me advice.. but i know that's not possible. bc any advice i get will be to forget him. but i can't. everytime i look at my daughter, i see him. i miss him, and it sucks that's he's being such a jerk.
you think that since he claims he misses me, and he knows how hard it is for me to make this move, he'd at least make an effort to change a little.
I've noticed that the only person changing in this relationship is me. and it's not fair. I've abandoned everything i know, everyone i know, for this guy. my entire lifestyle changed for him. I've made so much sacrifice, and he doesn't see it. What's worse is that my relationships with friends took a huge plummit because of him, and i've been so depressed for so long about it.
and even now, when i have the freedom to do whatever i want, i can't. and many of my friends gave up on me. and the more i try to go back, i can't.
it's obvious what my solution should be, but i can't do it. i'm not strong enough yet.