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I was thinking about the distant and very distant past (I wrote path there first, odd how the un/sub conscious presents itself), and how sometimes you think you're making the right choice when you make the wrong one. It does provide a great deal of learning, however.
But maybe what seems wrong at this moment wasn't wrong? Perhaps it allowed me the mistakes I needed to make, to get myself to the point of recently, and more recent?
I wonder how long this journal will remain in a self referential stage? Who knows... permanently? Not much new comes in the external world. I could gripe about politics and the external ways of even people with the best of intent... but why? There's too much out there... and I'll seek to affect personally and locally in indirect manners.
All the same, I've noticed a flux in this journal... from baring the innards to ripping apart the externals... the last baring of innards time was around 3 years ago; although certainly spots have come up in such time, as I'm sure external ones will during this.
I think it needs to be this for now, along with the refound socialization. The experiencing for a bit more, and the gathering during is often recorded here. But more so the focus and drive. The presenting of the self in a more human manner than impersonally done thus far. I'm putting the self forth, so I must delve far into it. Face the self, as I have been; but not revel.
Where lies the difference? I've a few ideas. ;)
But maybe what seems wrong at this moment wasn't wrong? Perhaps it allowed me the mistakes I needed to make, to get myself to the point of recently, and more recent?
I wonder how long this journal will remain in a self referential stage? Who knows... permanently? Not much new comes in the external world. I could gripe about politics and the external ways of even people with the best of intent... but why? There's too much out there... and I'll seek to affect personally and locally in indirect manners.
All the same, I've noticed a flux in this journal... from baring the innards to ripping apart the externals... the last baring of innards time was around 3 years ago; although certainly spots have come up in such time, as I'm sure external ones will during this.
I think it needs to be this for now, along with the refound socialization. The experiencing for a bit more, and the gathering during is often recorded here. But more so the focus and drive. The presenting of the self in a more human manner than impersonally done thus far. I'm putting the self forth, so I must delve far into it. Face the self, as I have been; but not revel.
Where lies the difference? I've a few ideas. ;)