one of the most recent meme's
Horoscope type deals and my thoughts in regards to their generalities. My thoughts are in parentheses.
AUGUST:
(seems to give the typical Leo type of assessment)
outgoing personality.
(Yes and no. I still have some difficulty striking up conversations, but am fully confident in my ability to carry them/participate in them, as long as the other person has a mental grade above a doorknob. I have this thing about respecting people way way too much, and not wanting to intrude in their lives unless I am quite certain they would wish that. It's an overdose of respect that has always held me back, vs a lack of self confidence, which I've always had; but more so now than ever).
takes risks.
(If you read this journal you know that's me. Although I'm growing up a bit. Choosing the proper risks to take.)
feeds on attention.
(Certainly, but don't we all to some degree? I'd say previously it was more in the typical Leo fashion... ie center of attention. But I actually don't like that anymore. Nowadays I enjoy attention, but in situations where I'm giving and receiving it, and am doing so only with a certain few I find to be enjoyable humans.)
no self control.
{My god hasn't that been the story my whole life? It's not as much anymore, though. Still a struggle in some respects, but absolutely reversed in others. Give me a bit and I think I just might have this bull by the horns completely.)
kind hearted.
{I am told constantly I am this. I feel that is who I am. I had a slight veering towards the lines of selfishness for awhile, but that has been corrected.)
self confident.
(Absolutely. Yet, I feel, with a decent dose of humility as well. Perhaps because I only compare myself with the best... meaning I can always see room for growth. Some would say measuring yourself up against what you perceive as perfection is futile; but I find it's always pushed and driven me; since I apply to things I can change and grow in.)
loud and boisteroius.
(Back and forth. Perhaps if I had grown up amongst society. I certainly have had that in me, and even revelled in it during periods of my life... but it was only external. I have never felt that way within. And I have been learning to enjoy externally being who I am internally far much more.)
VERY revengeful.
{By nature, certainly. But one can change their nature. And I have been. Work to do still, but the progress is astounding.)
easy to get along with and talk to.
(Depends on who you are, I guess. I'm honest and open and genuine, so if the mentality matches, then sure. Although if you don't like thought... probably not.)
has an "everything's peachy" attitude.
{That's never ever been me. But that's been changing too. Although... hmm... that was certainly the attitude I'd always tried to present when speaking of things of an immediate personal nature. I never wished to show personal weakness, was more the case. As far as state of the world and even distant futures, I'd always been more of a pessimist. I'm certainly no optimist now. But I'm happy.)
likes talking and singing.
{Hmm... Torn. On both. I like talking when talking should be had. But oftentimes it shouldn't and yet people feel the need to do it anyway. Singing... it's fun, sometimes I like how I do it, sometimes not. The chords are being trained, though, and it's more often positive than not, so yay.)
loves music.
{Umm... hello beavis? Duh.)
daydreamer.
{Can I get a big "duh. fucking DUH". Yes please.)
easily distracted.
{Personally speaking yes; I jump back and forth between projects and have trouble focusing... but it seems different than what I see around me often...I am not the flake and unreliable person towards others than too many in this day and age are. I am committed. To too much?
Hates not being trusted.
{Sure but who doesn't. I more hate not being able to trust.)
BIG imagination.
(Kind of goes hand in hand with daydreaming all the time doesn't it? I grew up in a forest with nothing but books and my mind to entertain me growing up. Do you think I have an imagination? Possibly? heh.)
loves to be loved.
(Certainly, but redefinitions of what love is of both relationship and human sorts have grown and progressed throughout the years. Took a step backwards recently, but then a leap forwards.)
hates studying.
{Hate studying things I've no interest in, but love studying and learning, on my own or from others).
in need of "that someone".
{I would still certainly like to have a like minded partner in life. But I don't believe in "that someone". That's a fairy tale concept.)
longs for freedom.
{What a funny funny statement. Personally speaking of course. Sure, who isn't? Define freedom, though. That's the fun part.)
rebellious whe withheld or restricted.
{Again, isn't that human nature? That's right, I don't make a very good cog.)
lives by "no pain no gain"
{Always pushing myself, mentally and phsyically. Absolutely.)
caring.
(Without a doubt. Even though I don't personally care for most of the people in the world... I do care, generally speaking. Those I do personally care for will have no shortage of love or caring from me, if such is desired.)
always a suspect.
(What? Always a character, sure. But a suspect? I don't know, guess you'll have to ask others about that. Not as far as I can see, unless you go back to family times, where I was certainly the troublemake and de facto blame receiver. But generally speaking, this world has a hell of a lot of troublemakers, and I'm far from being anywhere near the worst of them.)
playful.
(Never lose your inner child. Never.)
mysterious.
(Not really; I'm quite open. But again, that's a perception I guess you'd have to ask others about.)
"charming" or "beautiful" to a specail person.
(Pointless statement. Isn't that a part of why someone is special?)
stubborn.
(Yep, from the getgo. But I've worked on applying my stubborness for beneficial matters, and dropping it when it would be malignant. Happy with the progress.)
courious.
(So I'm definitely a better speller than the person who made this, christ, how many mistakes has it been now? But yes, most assuredly curious. A questioner, if you will.)
independent.
(Yes and no. I think I'm becoming so. Making it so that I don't need to lean on anyone. But not because I think sometimes being able to rely on others is bad. Simply because in this world, you can't. Survival equals selfishness, when you get down to the line, and that's the number one priority for most in this world, unfortunately.)
strong willed. a fighter.
{Ahem. Yes.)
AUGUST:
(seems to give the typical Leo type of assessment)
outgoing personality.
(Yes and no. I still have some difficulty striking up conversations, but am fully confident in my ability to carry them/participate in them, as long as the other person has a mental grade above a doorknob. I have this thing about respecting people way way too much, and not wanting to intrude in their lives unless I am quite certain they would wish that. It's an overdose of respect that has always held me back, vs a lack of self confidence, which I've always had; but more so now than ever).
takes risks.
(If you read this journal you know that's me. Although I'm growing up a bit. Choosing the proper risks to take.)
feeds on attention.
(Certainly, but don't we all to some degree? I'd say previously it was more in the typical Leo fashion... ie center of attention. But I actually don't like that anymore. Nowadays I enjoy attention, but in situations where I'm giving and receiving it, and am doing so only with a certain few I find to be enjoyable humans.)
no self control.
{My god hasn't that been the story my whole life? It's not as much anymore, though. Still a struggle in some respects, but absolutely reversed in others. Give me a bit and I think I just might have this bull by the horns completely.)
kind hearted.
{I am told constantly I am this. I feel that is who I am. I had a slight veering towards the lines of selfishness for awhile, but that has been corrected.)
self confident.
(Absolutely. Yet, I feel, with a decent dose of humility as well. Perhaps because I only compare myself with the best... meaning I can always see room for growth. Some would say measuring yourself up against what you perceive as perfection is futile; but I find it's always pushed and driven me; since I apply to things I can change and grow in.)
loud and boisteroius.
(Back and forth. Perhaps if I had grown up amongst society. I certainly have had that in me, and even revelled in it during periods of my life... but it was only external. I have never felt that way within. And I have been learning to enjoy externally being who I am internally far much more.)
VERY revengeful.
{By nature, certainly. But one can change their nature. And I have been. Work to do still, but the progress is astounding.)
easy to get along with and talk to.
(Depends on who you are, I guess. I'm honest and open and genuine, so if the mentality matches, then sure. Although if you don't like thought... probably not.)
has an "everything's peachy" attitude.
{That's never ever been me. But that's been changing too. Although... hmm... that was certainly the attitude I'd always tried to present when speaking of things of an immediate personal nature. I never wished to show personal weakness, was more the case. As far as state of the world and even distant futures, I'd always been more of a pessimist. I'm certainly no optimist now. But I'm happy.)
likes talking and singing.
{Hmm... Torn. On both. I like talking when talking should be had. But oftentimes it shouldn't and yet people feel the need to do it anyway. Singing... it's fun, sometimes I like how I do it, sometimes not. The chords are being trained, though, and it's more often positive than not, so yay.)
loves music.
{Umm... hello beavis? Duh.)
daydreamer.
{Can I get a big "duh. fucking DUH". Yes please.)
easily distracted.
{Personally speaking yes; I jump back and forth between projects and have trouble focusing... but it seems different than what I see around me often...I am not the flake and unreliable person towards others than too many in this day and age are. I am committed. To too much?
Hates not being trusted.
{Sure but who doesn't. I more hate not being able to trust.)
BIG imagination.
(Kind of goes hand in hand with daydreaming all the time doesn't it? I grew up in a forest with nothing but books and my mind to entertain me growing up. Do you think I have an imagination? Possibly? heh.)
loves to be loved.
(Certainly, but redefinitions of what love is of both relationship and human sorts have grown and progressed throughout the years. Took a step backwards recently, but then a leap forwards.)
hates studying.
{Hate studying things I've no interest in, but love studying and learning, on my own or from others).
in need of "that someone".
{I would still certainly like to have a like minded partner in life. But I don't believe in "that someone". That's a fairy tale concept.)
longs for freedom.
{What a funny funny statement. Personally speaking of course. Sure, who isn't? Define freedom, though. That's the fun part.)
rebellious whe withheld or restricted.
{Again, isn't that human nature? That's right, I don't make a very good cog.)
lives by "no pain no gain"
{Always pushing myself, mentally and phsyically. Absolutely.)
caring.
(Without a doubt. Even though I don't personally care for most of the people in the world... I do care, generally speaking. Those I do personally care for will have no shortage of love or caring from me, if such is desired.)
always a suspect.
(What? Always a character, sure. But a suspect? I don't know, guess you'll have to ask others about that. Not as far as I can see, unless you go back to family times, where I was certainly the troublemake and de facto blame receiver. But generally speaking, this world has a hell of a lot of troublemakers, and I'm far from being anywhere near the worst of them.)
playful.
(Never lose your inner child. Never.)
mysterious.
(Not really; I'm quite open. But again, that's a perception I guess you'd have to ask others about.)
"charming" or "beautiful" to a specail person.
(Pointless statement. Isn't that a part of why someone is special?)
stubborn.
(Yep, from the getgo. But I've worked on applying my stubborness for beneficial matters, and dropping it when it would be malignant. Happy with the progress.)
courious.
(So I'm definitely a better speller than the person who made this, christ, how many mistakes has it been now? But yes, most assuredly curious. A questioner, if you will.)
independent.
(Yes and no. I think I'm becoming so. Making it so that I don't need to lean on anyone. But not because I think sometimes being able to rely on others is bad. Simply because in this world, you can't. Survival equals selfishness, when you get down to the line, and that's the number one priority for most in this world, unfortunately.)
strong willed. a fighter.
{Ahem. Yes.)