this is why i don't sleep
These are as close to my exact thoughts last night as I can get, after going to bed around 2:30am.
as i pull the blanket up to my mouth and try to get comfortalble-"I like sleeping on the floor, but I always end up sleeping in weird positions, probably not so good on my back...why do i have to have the blanket up against my mouth? am I that paranoid about spiders? It's because i'm on the floor, at their level...i feel like there is one in here right now watching me. Usually i'm right when i have these feelings. i hate spiders. so creepy. maybe i should turn the light on and look around. nah, probably wouldn't see one even if there was one in here. they can hide pretty good. I need to go to sleep.
hmm. i can't wait to get back to oregon, I'm going to show up at jenn's door and surprise her...give her a big hug, and maybe a kiss, too. i'll spend the first night in her bed, talking until morning...where would aaron sleep? It would be nice to go a week before him so i can have some alone time with everyone without feeling guilty for leaving him out. but i want to travel with him. that's a long drive by hisself. and he'd have the pets, too. I wonder if we can set up the ferret cage the way we did the rat cage so she can have room to run around. The rat doesn't really need so much room for travel. We'd better get the same sized U-haul. okay, so the motorcycle will go in the uhaul(so illegal) and we'll tow the truck. fuck, what about the trailer, we forgot about the trailer! dammit. hmmmm Wait, I should be sleeping not thinking about this. HA! see how easy that was, to just turn off the thoughts just like that. see, i'm improving on this stuff. gonna start sleeping easier. wait? i'm still thinking, I just changed subjects...what the fuck?!? that's not helpful. dammit, it's like three am. shut up and go to sleep. this is why i don't sleep. that would be a good myspace entry...hmm. i should write this down. so random. it really feels like a spider is watching me. a big one. maybe as big as the one in that bathroom. hmm..what was that book that describled the feel of the plump spider being flicked off someone's skin? stephen king maybe...eww, i wonder what those legs from the huge bathroom spider would feel like on my skin. i'd better pull the blanket up over my head, i'm never going to fall asleep thinking like this. I can't breathe like this. dammit. god, grow up...(pulls blankets back down, but still over mouth) just stop thinking about spiders and go to sleep...that's better.....i really should write this all down. I'd better make sure i get up before steve and beth leave so that i can make sure they take Aaron's backpack with them. go to sleep. dammit i need to sleep...
AND SO... ladies and gentlemen...this is why i don't sleep. I wake up with shit like this going on in my stupid head.
as i pull the blanket up to my mouth and try to get comfortalble-"I like sleeping on the floor, but I always end up sleeping in weird positions, probably not so good on my back...why do i have to have the blanket up against my mouth? am I that paranoid about spiders? It's because i'm on the floor, at their level...i feel like there is one in here right now watching me. Usually i'm right when i have these feelings. i hate spiders. so creepy. maybe i should turn the light on and look around. nah, probably wouldn't see one even if there was one in here. they can hide pretty good. I need to go to sleep.
hmm. i can't wait to get back to oregon, I'm going to show up at jenn's door and surprise her...give her a big hug, and maybe a kiss, too. i'll spend the first night in her bed, talking until morning...where would aaron sleep? It would be nice to go a week before him so i can have some alone time with everyone without feeling guilty for leaving him out. but i want to travel with him. that's a long drive by hisself. and he'd have the pets, too. I wonder if we can set up the ferret cage the way we did the rat cage so she can have room to run around. The rat doesn't really need so much room for travel. We'd better get the same sized U-haul. okay, so the motorcycle will go in the uhaul(so illegal) and we'll tow the truck. fuck, what about the trailer, we forgot about the trailer! dammit. hmmmm Wait, I should be sleeping not thinking about this. HA! see how easy that was, to just turn off the thoughts just like that. see, i'm improving on this stuff. gonna start sleeping easier. wait? i'm still thinking, I just changed subjects...what the fuck?!? that's not helpful. dammit, it's like three am. shut up and go to sleep. this is why i don't sleep. that would be a good myspace entry...hmm. i should write this down. so random. it really feels like a spider is watching me. a big one. maybe as big as the one in that bathroom. hmm..what was that book that describled the feel of the plump spider being flicked off someone's skin? stephen king maybe...eww, i wonder what those legs from the huge bathroom spider would feel like on my skin. i'd better pull the blanket up over my head, i'm never going to fall asleep thinking like this. I can't breathe like this. dammit. god, grow up...(pulls blankets back down, but still over mouth) just stop thinking about spiders and go to sleep...that's better.....i really should write this all down. I'd better make sure i get up before steve and beth leave so that i can make sure they take Aaron's backpack with them. go to sleep. dammit i need to sleep...
AND SO... ladies and gentlemen...this is why i don't sleep. I wake up with shit like this going on in my stupid head.