i give up
i swear god is puishing me for something i did but i dont know what it is.see it all starts out at the start of my 8th grade year.i started likeing this guy if u dont know who am talking about its anthony.well i liked him since then but i thought therewas no reason to tell him that i liked him.so the year went on i caught him stareing at me a few times but thought of it in no way special.then the year passed and it was may the week before the 8th grade formal.at that time i was going out with gabe.then out of the blue anthony asked me to the formal.it was a no brainer for me to say no cause i wasnt about to do that to gabe.so then it was the night of the formal my date didnt want to dance with me but then anthony came up to me and said he was looking for me the whole time.so i danced with him the last song.then it was the day before the last day of school and guess whos group i was in.yes anthonys and we talked almost the whole time and walked together as friends.so then its finally the end of the school year and summer starts.the only guy i talked to was anthony cause for ome reason gabe didnt want to.u knowhe actully told me he had dreams about me(which was kinda freaky)and that he had feelings for me.so we talked until i figured out that i was falling for him and that me and gbe werent going to work out seeing that we were going to diferent high schools.so thats when i broke up with him and told anthony well he sounded happy in a way and told me he was going to take me to the movies since gabe never did.thats when i barely talked to him anymore.i didnt make that big of a deal to me but i was kinda sad.i figures i would talk to him when schoolstarted.and i did he gave me a hug on the first day of school and i gave him a note saying how i felt but then saying that i didnt want togo out right at the moment cause i didnt want to GET MY HEART BROKE.then i wrote him more letters and finally he wrote me back saying he didnt want o go out ever cause he might get my heart broke.so i kept writing him telling i wanted to go out and that there was no way he ould do that unless he cheated but every letter came back with the same reply i dont want to break ur heart.so thats what i get for faling for a guy rejection.its sad though cause i cant get over him and i dont think i will ever get over him.then last week one of my friends came up to me and said that she really likes anthony and that he likes her to and that she heard about me liking him alot and asked me if it was alright if they went out.its not the fact that i still like him and that i dont think he likes me the same.its the fact that he said all the same things to her as he said to me.