All-Understanding
I wouldn't really call myself "all-knowing" more like, all-understanding, which so happens to be my frailty. And now, I don't really understand what happened. I don't like getting pity or sympathy from others. I don't like the attention, but I know what happens when such events occur. My father killed himself yesterday.
And I know that by telling others this, it will get their sympathy and pity and thus, many will think I'm utilizing such a situation for my benefits. I miss my dad. I wish I had been closer to him instead of always pushing him off. I tend to do that to people, always pushing them off until later. Always expecting to hang out with them later, and never now. And now he's gone.
I don't know what's happening anymore. I'm so lost and twisted. I'm so confused. All I can do is give my support to my family.
And I know that by telling others this, it will get their sympathy and pity and thus, many will think I'm utilizing such a situation for my benefits. I miss my dad. I wish I had been closer to him instead of always pushing him off. I tend to do that to people, always pushing them off until later. Always expecting to hang out with them later, and never now. And now he's gone.
I don't know what's happening anymore. I'm so lost and twisted. I'm so confused. All I can do is give my support to my family.