Coming clean

[dreamsinxcolour]

A few years ago, I let my heart take a bit of a bruising. I allowed myself to be played and then convinced myself that deep down I had known all along, trying to justify my naivety. Then, last March, when I finally realised I was still stuck on a treadmill at the starting line, I called it a day and attempted to start over. I had the freedom, but

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[torreadora]

We've said very little to each other anymore, I know. I can't make any acceptable case for you to take me along with you to your new journal, other than that I'll miss reading about your life. I'll miss your presence here.

[dreamsinxcolour]

This isn't at all about you and I or how we grew apart, although I know you'll do just fine without me, because you already do, and I don't mean that as a dig at you.

You and I were introduced in the process of the aforementioned heart-bruising. If it had never happened, we'd never have met. I sincerely hope that life will one day steer you back to me, so that we can go back to the beginning and re-learn each other, on our own terms. It's just something I need to do to finally get over this, and I hope you'll understand.

[kate_4d]

I want to make a plea to be taken along with you to your new 'home'. I wont do it though, because its not fair. I've been absent, distance and plainly non-existent. I'll be sad not to see entries from you, but I more than understand [maybe more than you think] how you feel.

I believe that in order to move on, starting over fresh can be the best way to do it. That's partly why i was so excited to leave home to go to uni. I'd finally be somewhere that no one knew me, or could recall what i looked like in grade 2. It was freedom to grow. I hope that you find a future that you're going to be happy in. <3

[dreamsinxcolour]

I want to make it clear that I'm not doing this as some kind of vengeance for the lack of comments I get these days. That was just the deciding factor that now was the perfect time, because I wouldn't feel like I'm abandoning anybody. I'm not. I'm just resetting my life.

[kate_4d]

Oh,hun, I know it's not because of a lack of comments. By saying I was distant I meant that in a way i was doing the same thing--cutting off a part of my life, and just existing. Which is why I feel it'd be unfair to ask you to take anyone along, including me! I want you to do this for you! That's is more important to me than being included... I want you to be happy!<3

[dusti_phoenix]

*loves on you*

*is sad*