Get outta my head
Ten Things I Wish I Could Say to Ten Different People Right Now:
1. Thank you.
2. I'm tired of being the only one making the effort. I give up.
3. They miss you every day. I hope you liked your bear. Your sister's getting big now.
4. I wish I knew why I still care about you. Don't push me, I'll trust you again when you give me reason to.
5. You always think your life is so unfair. You know what? Try being me.
6. I didn't mean to hurt you, but I suddenly realised that you annoy the shit out of me, in almost every way possible.
7. If you weren't spoken for and I were prettier, I think I'd have just kissed you already. Even if you are a bit of a health freak.
8. You have no idea how much I envy you. Looks, intelligence, talent, friends, love; somebody won the genetic lottery.
9. Before you, I can't remember the last time I felt genuinely liked and unjudged, even with knowing all my embarrassing secrets.
10. You stifle her. She's not as bad as you think. No worse than you can be, anyway.
Nine Things About Myself:
1. I love the sound of the rain on the caravan roof at night.
2. I sometimes miss being bald.
3. I eagerly await the invention of the teleportation-station.
4. I used to trust too easily, now I never trust at all.
5. In the past few months, the only dream I've had was a nightmare.
6. I've recently developed a love for stir fries. Especially ones with beansprouts.
7. Two of my favourite books of all time (besides Harry Potter) are 'Lucas' by Kevin Brooks, and 'Looking For Alaska' by John Green.
8. I've always wanted an older brother, or an amazingly close guy friend.
9. I'm thinking of writing a book. I just can't decide which story to go with - fantasy or reality.
Eight Ways to Win My Heart:
1. Be honest.
2. Take me on a drive with no destination. Through tunnels of green leaves and streets of thatched houses.
3. Watch 'My Girl' with me.
4. Send me mail. I love mail.
5. Be able to sustain an intelligible conversation.
6. Make me hawaiian toast. (Ham, cheese, pineapple ring, grilled on toast.)
7. Humour me, but don't be patronizing.
8. Take me to an art shop.
Seven Things That Cross My Mind a Lot:
1. I need to start some form of regular exercise.
2. I like this song. Must remember a few lyrics to google later.
3. I wonder if she ever thinks about me.
4. I'm hungry.
5. Shit, I forgot to.. (insert important task).
6. Those goddamn curtains are hideous.
7. I wish I had money to spenddddd.
Six Things I Do Before I Fall Asleep:
1. Check Myspace and Facebook. I know, I'm sad and have no life. :(
2. Extract all accessories from my hair and remove all jewellery, and change into my big, baggy Harry Potter & The Deathly Hallows midnight release tshirt from Waterstones.
3. Brush my teeth while listening to my Zen (or now, my iPod).
4. Put my phone next to my bed.
5. Turn the fan on setting #2.
6. Pull the quilt right up around my neck and lay on my side.
Five People Who Mean a Lot To Me:
1. Fiona.
2. Mum.
3. Dad.
4. Vanessa.
5. Mafy.
Four Things I'm Wearing Right Now (although I should be in my PJs):
1. Jeans.
2. White strappy top.
3. Fiona's grey, kind of baggy cardigan.
4. Necklace on green ribbons with a flat, round green pendant that resembles polished shell or stone.
Three Songs That I Listen to Often:
1. 'Never Let Go' - Hanson.
2. 'Pressure' - Paramore.
3. 'You Wouldn't Like Me' - Tegan & Sara.
Two Things I Want to Do Before I Die:
1. Find someone who will put up with me, with whom I feel comfortable and happy.
2. Be able to say my second chance was worth the fight.
One Confession:
1. I disgust myself at how similar I'm becoming to somebody for whom I have no patience anymore.