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so i promised my self that when it snows for the very first time no matter how hard or soft or short or long or whatever, i would sing and listen to Christmas Bells from RENT. [you know....."And it's beginning to snow"]
so i was walking inbetween buildings to go to study hall.....from Bio...and i look and all this white stuff is falling but its so pretty and light and hardly at all. So the song pops into my head. and there comes my very very very amazing friend Alissa [who, yes, is a fellow RENThead] and i go up to here and she is like "its snowing!!!!!" and i start singing:
"and its beginning to snow!!!!!!!!!" and she joins in with me and we laught and giggle and cheer. it was fun.
then when i got into study hall, i got my cd player out my RENT soundtrack and just listened to that one song "Christmas Bells" in honor of the first snowfall.
but the snowfall like hardly lasted. it didn't even leave a coating.
but it was still really really really nice to see because i looooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooove snow.
other than that my dad was awful. just awful. i think i have cried more than 5 times today. and when i say cry i don't just mean a few tears. like at one point i screamed.
because i'm just so frusterated with things.
1. this one kid [the kid who said that thing about RENT in my last entry and about coffee inhaling, etc etc people] i just found out, was saying stuff about me over the summer about how he hates the "coffee-drinking, barnes and noble going, garden state watching, coldplay listening, people" and that i came to mind and that he thinks i am trying to be someone i am not and blah blah blah. all this bull shit.
2. i'm failing like all my class
3. i got a 5:30 detention for playing with someone else phone. and the girl, whose phone it was, didn't get one. and she went up to the teacher and said that it was her phone and said she should get a detention too.
4. my dad flipped out on my because i mumbled something about how i'm sick of this house. and he went off on how i'm lucky that i'm not in this house for the rest of my life because of my grades and blah blah. and how i'm lucky that he is being so merciful about my grades.
and i just am a little confused about what to do with myself. but thats why i have amazing amazing amazing friends that always seem to pull through for me no matter what is going on.
je t'aime.
abbey