Here we go again...
So the other day I couldn't remember when I was ever that happy now life is turning upside down once again...The only good thing about today was I got to go to church. I'm so sick of getting blamed for stuff I don't do by people who like to be complete ass holes. I'm sick of it why can't we just get along? All I ever wanted to do was be friends and I knew by going out with him it would mess things up... Okay I still care for him and I can't help it because I was HONESTLY in LOVE with Michael. Why must life be a pain in the ass. ARGHHH!! This is upsetting me more than I ever thought it would but I guess when you find that one speical person you just know and I thought I had that with him. :: Sigh:: Anthony's a really sweet guy but I feel like somethings missing and I know it has to do with me because I CAN'T put my whole heart into it and it's killing me! He says he loves me and I wanna believe him and as much as I'd love to say it back I can't. He told me that he loved me the other night and I almost started crying but I held it in and just stared at the stars... ::Sigh:: The stars remind me of Michael! Anthony I'm sorry I can't say it back I guess just give me time and be here for me. xoxoxox