Longing
Tittle: Longing
Rating: PG
Genre: PG
Characters: Jed
She continued to walk in his dreams infusing them with images of a past that was best forgotten. The dreams were always too vivid too raw. She would glide softly thru them taunting him with a memory of silken sheets and tangled limbs. Violet eyes that could dance with wicked amusement or flash with unrepressed passion would follow him tormenting him with emotions he wished he could forget. Emotions that would have him waking up in a cold sweat wanting her needing her knowing that he could never have her; knowing that in this life redemption would not be found.
He knew that holding on was useless that the only one that he was hurting was himself; however, easier said than done. He loved her. Even after the unwilling betrayal he had committed and the countless of lifetimes that had passed his heart continued to cry out her name. It was as if he had been born to want her, to need her with a desperation that bordered on the insane.
He had tried to block out the feel of her skin, had tried in vain to find solace in the arms of another and still his very essence seemed to cry out for hers. He was so tired of being locked away in despair tired of waiting for the last vestiges of his sanity to fly away. Sometimes the fear would settle deep within him that he would never be free that in this life or in the next his heart would continue to follow her.
He wished for something that could finally eradicate her image from his heart but this time he was truly afraid that there was nothing he could do that as long as he existed he would love her, he would yearn for her. He had loved her beyond words beyond obsession and even though at one point he had hoped for forgiveness he had always known it was a futile wish. Tomorrow he would walk down that aisle ready to make a life commitment carrying deep within his soul a pair of lilac eyes.
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