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[dreams_of_hope_]

i really don't know who this is directed towards to. it's not really to one person but i guess to a huge list.
it wouldn't be right of me to give names, i guess.
i'm so sick and tired of waking up everyday feeling like i'm just around for everyone else's amusement.
i'm a real person with real feelings, i'm sick of being taken for granted and taken advantage of.
i've had a lot of time today to think things over. i was in a pretty good mood, and i still sort of am.
but i'm seriously done with sitting here, day in and day out realizing that i just don't think anything matters anymore. i give my all to you guys and i've noticed that i don't have anything in return. friendship is a two way street, and i feel like no one is really grasping that.
i used to pride myself in the friends i have and now i just feel like i don't even want to bother.
i have so much going on in my life right now, a lot of big changes that have happened, things that are going to be happening.. it's a lot to deal with and i feel like i'm doing this alone.
i'm not going to be here for you to use when it's convenient for you.
i'll fucking make sure that if you fuck me over it'll be the LAST thing you do alive.
I promise.

All that aside, today was pretty decent :)