my thoughts..
Lex <3 Brandon
3 months
Yesterday was soo amazing, woke up and got ready, bought dunkin donuts for me and the guys, headed over to brandons to get their lazy asses out of bed (this was like 9:30 mind you). Stayed in bed with brandon for awhile, chased joey out of the room lmao. Got my surface piercing done across the bottom of my belly button underneath the vertical one thats already there. Left around 10:45, made brandon drive, picked up Danielle and headed off to bonzai. Wasnt crowded at all when we first got there, found our seats on the lawn and parked our asses. Sat there for pretty much the rest of the day laying in the sun, listening to music, There were more than a few amusing occurances lol, made fun of people, spent a fortune on drinks, almost got tazered, the usual :-P. But no words can really give justice to the way it felt to be there with Brandon. It was one of those days that you wish with all your heart would never end, but when they do its always with a smile on your face as you fall asleep.
If you want to be pissed at me for being happy, then go for it. If you feel like I am a bad person for whatever petty reason, then that is your desicion. A person can belong to no one but themselves. I do not go out of my way to upset people but I do what I believe will make me happy in the end. Despite what you believe, I have changed, it just goes to show how much you don't know me. I'm tired of dealing with people who are pressumptious and fake. Your not worth my time and to tell you the truth, I really dont care what you think.
I had a long talk with my dad today, he said alot of things that made alot of sense. I need to start budgeting my time better and take care of my responsabilities better. I am almost an adult and he is going to begin treating me like one, I just need to help out more and appreciate all the things hes doing for me so that I can have a car to drive and everything else. I also need to get my ass moving on my school work so I wont have to lie about my grades anymore.
I think about your face
And how I fall into your eyes
The outline that I trace
Around the one that I call mine
Time that called for space
Unclear where you drew the line
I don't need to solve this case
And I don't need to look behind