its been a while

[dreams_never_do]

the time since i last wrote in here felt like it took forever to pass but now i look back on it and i realize it went faster than i thought.i hope the rest of my time away from shaun goes that fast or faster....faster i hope. im missin him more than ever...it still has proven to get harder and harder to get by and i miss him more each day. i got pics back from when me, shaun. marina, and tara went to MGM Studios...i opened the package and started balling....it is still hard to look at the pics of us. i have gotten around 10 or 11 letters from him so far...they help but they r nothing compared to holding him my arms. when i got the first letter i cried myself to sleep...and the next couple nights too. im dying here without him.
i miss u all....Shaun, Mary, Sam*, Tara*, everyone who has drifted from me....i dont kno y some of u* r gone but i need u*...especially in this time when im depressed and all alone...i only have charlie to keep me sane and he is only one person and from my expeiences i kno that one person cant do it all alone....i need u*....but it seems i dont exist to u* anymore...

luv always carebear