where the hell do i go now
today was crappy. i hate phone calls like the one i had today.
you know, the kind that leave you upset, confused, scared to death,
but still a little bit happy.
i got home from the store with my mom and my sister told me alex called. i havent talked to that kid in forever.
i love that kid and i wasnt home to talk to him and he still has no cell since he lost it downtown this summer. stupid eff.
so i was thinking about stuff. stuff thats pointless, things i miss. things that will never happen. people i wish ive held on to longer. people im happy i let go of. and all in all i truley dont know what i want.
what i want and what i feel are two completely different things. and i need to just let whats gonna happen happen because eventually it will and trying to stop it just because its not what i want, is just gonna make it worse. cause its gonna happen either way. im just not ready for it to happen yet.
i just wish that forevers never ended these days and that everythings actually meant something.
you know, the kind that leave you upset, confused, scared to death,
but still a little bit happy.
i got home from the store with my mom and my sister told me alex called. i havent talked to that kid in forever.
i love that kid and i wasnt home to talk to him and he still has no cell since he lost it downtown this summer. stupid eff.
so i was thinking about stuff. stuff thats pointless, things i miss. things that will never happen. people i wish ive held on to longer. people im happy i let go of. and all in all i truley dont know what i want.
what i want and what i feel are two completely different things. and i need to just let whats gonna happen happen because eventually it will and trying to stop it just because its not what i want, is just gonna make it worse. cause its gonna happen either way. im just not ready for it to happen yet.
i just wish that forevers never ended these days and that everythings actually meant something.