this is my dedication to you
it was goddamn perfect just days ago. and now im sitting here, crying and wondering what the hell had happened. all because she wants something to chenge means that everything thats has happened is ending right in front of us and we cant change any of it. i feel like im nothing. i feel like you could care less n i feel thats how it has always been. i was afraid to let anything happen before and now, its all ending before it even had a chance to try and work its way through what i "wanted". ive never been so worried b4 about one little thing. i guess it really isnt that little though, its huge, it means a lot to me. you mean a lot to me. and its done now. i miss you allready and you havent even left yet. i miss everything that was just beginning to happen. the reason i never let it start earlier was because i was afraid of something like this happened. but i couldnt help it. you cant ever change how you feel. sometimes you dont even realize how powerful something is until something like this happens.
someone amazing once told me: "it's just like an avalanche, just getting bigger and bigger. Then when it settles gonna have to see where everything is.. "
everything happens for a reason right? so behind all the anger and dissapointment and tears in my eyes, theres a reason why its like this. im just not ready to get up and give up on something like this. someone like you. i dont want it to be like this. it just kills me because i know youre okay with it all. and im not. not one bit. im the most un-okay with this that anyone could ever be about anything. about anyone. i was scared to get this close to you and now im scared to be pushed away from you.
"i wanna be able to kiss you when ever i feel like it. i wanna be able to hold you whenever im cold. i wanna be able to talk to you even when i have nothing to say. i wanna be able to just be with you and know u wanna be with me too."
someone amazing once told me: "it's just like an avalanche, just getting bigger and bigger. Then when it settles gonna have to see where everything is.. "
everything happens for a reason right? so behind all the anger and dissapointment and tears in my eyes, theres a reason why its like this. im just not ready to get up and give up on something like this. someone like you. i dont want it to be like this. it just kills me because i know youre okay with it all. and im not. not one bit. im the most un-okay with this that anyone could ever be about anything. about anyone. i was scared to get this close to you and now im scared to be pushed away from you.
"i wanna be able to kiss you when ever i feel like it. i wanna be able to hold you whenever im cold. i wanna be able to talk to you even when i have nothing to say. i wanna be able to just be with you and know u wanna be with me too."