Sep 27, 2004 20:01
so much has happened lately... i did a 200 pt project that was due today lastnight. started at 9 and ended at about 2 in the morning. im sicker than sick. its gross. i sound gross. i lost my key sometime this weekend... no idea where is at.
so me n maria just arent friends anymore? pretty amazing how one person can tear a whole friendship apart right before your eyes. and its even more amazing how one of the friends can be so oblivious about all of it until then other has had enough. im broke. im allready spending my paycheck b4 i even got it.
i can honestly say though that no matter how much i miss him, i wouldnt go back... ever. ive finally gotten to the point where i jsut had enough.
ive learned sooo much lately. so many lessons... wow. i dont even know where to begin. the number one thing is if someone doesnt like you for the people you hang out with, theyre not wort trying to be friends with. which brings me to something else.. can you honestly say that we were ever anything when you had to lie about me. thats just rediculous. certain people just dont get it. they dont get the little things they do that they think are okay, make the worse impacts on some people.
so we're perfet for eachother i was told... i laughed, what else was i supposed to do? lol it was so outa nowhere. im not too sure. im very skeptical about things now. ive not ready to just take up any offer. im not ready to take up any offer actually. im just done with relationships. its all over. i hate them. i hate the people mostly.
id do anything to be able to kiss you whenever i feel like it. thats all i ask for, nothing more than that one little power
its the person who will sit with you when ur drunk untill u fall asleep to make sure ur okay. the person who doesnt mind holding ur hair back from ur face as you lay there on the bathroom floor. its the person who will hold your hand to keep it warm and sit outside in the freezing cold until you cool down. its the person who will look you in the eyes and say youre beautiful right before they kiss you. its the person you cant control falling for more and more each and every time you see them.